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After a day with more than 12k steps sightseeing, a 4mi run was not in the cards; but a lovely post-dinner walk was just what I needed. Today’s #HealingMiles are in memory of Isaac Tulloch of Australia, who died by suicide in September 2019 at the young age of 18. I’ve run in memory of Isaac before and I’m always inspired by his mom Mandy’s drive to bring change to her native Australia. Isaac’s vibrant spirit and endless energy left an indelible mark on those who knew him, Mandy has shared and I see it in the photos she has shared. I particularly love the photo of Isaac and Mandy laughing together. Sending you love, Mandy; and carrying you and Isaac’s sisters, Kayla and Laura, in my heart. #RememberingIsaac 📱☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, services are available 24/7 in both the US and in Australia ☎️📱 🇦🇺 Call 13 11 14 🇦🇺 Text 0477 13 11 14 🇺🇸 Call/Text 988 #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #healingmiles #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew

☕️Came downstairs ahead of Abby and Mom because “If I don’t have coffee, I might die.” And that’s not even a little bit dramatic this morning.☕️ Despite my anxiety traveling through airports and being in big crowds, I have enjoyed visiting new places for races over the last few years. And this trip, to quote Lizzie McGuire… “This is what dreams are made of.” Travel and experiencing new places has mental health benefits (of course this nerd researched this)… 🌍 Exploring new places boosts mental health by providing a change of scenery, which can reduce stress and alleviate feelings of anxiety. 🧠 It stimulates the mind by exposing it to new experiences, cultures, and perspectives, fostering creativity and cognitive flexibility. 💫 Traveling encourages personal growth and self-discovery, enhancing overall well-being and resilience to life’s challenges. Today, I’m excited to explore Tivoli and the Colusseum. I’m tired so we’ll see if there’s another afternoon run or “just” a walk. But there’s definitely a second cup of coffee!! ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7. #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

First “real” run in 🇮🇹 and I brought along Jim Puggi, Brett Ploude, and Bekah Finke 💙💙💙 It was a hot, humid, uphill first half but a breezy, downhill return trip with a smile the whole way back. May MTD 7️⃣0️⃣ 🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Brandi Enloe of Scottsdale, AZ, who died by suicide in January 2024. Her daughter Bree Ramsdell shared, “My birth mom, Brandi, struggled with drug addiction for a lot of her life. She was 13 when she started using drugs and died by suicide this year, when she was 50. It was 6 days after my birthday. Obviously I feel horrible and it’s still very fresh and painful. But she was such a ray of light and sunshine. I believe I get a lot of my light and caring nature from her. She worked as a caregiver to elderly. She was a free spirit, and she just loved everybody and everything and wanted to help in any way she could. She was so beautiful (despite how the drugs made her), she was still so beautiful and I wish she saw that in herself. I miss her laugh, I miss her hugs. I miss everything about her.” Sending you lots of love Bree. 💙💚🪽 Many of our loved ones struggled with addiction before death, maybe as a way to cope with the feelings they didn’t know how to handle? I don’t know. I know sometimes l lean on alcohol as one of my unhealthier coping mechanisms, but understand that it only deepens my feelings of anxiety and depression and shame. If only we could encourage talking and sharing those feelings we work to shove deep down inside ourselves when it gets oh so dark and loud inside our heads. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7. #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

☕️Morning coffee looks a little bit different today 🇮🇹☕️ When I sat down to brainstorm topics for mental health month, I figured what better topic to discuss while in Italy than the connection between food and mental health?! For many, including me, food can be a tricky topic. I live with a binge eating disorder (that I manage with therapy and medication and a crap ton of healthy coping skills) and body dysmorphia and emotional eating (which is different from binge eating). But, today, I focus on the joyful connection of food and mental health. 🍎 Enjoying a balanced diet can contribute to improved mood and mental well-being. 👩‍🍳 Cooking and sharing meals with loved ones fosters social connections and boosts feelings of happiness and fulfillment (my FAVORITE!!!!) 🍫 Indulging in occasional treats or favorite comfort foods can provide moments of pleasure and relaxation. 🌮 Exploring new cuisines and flavors can ignite creativity and curiosity. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7. #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

Here for my first full day in Italy with Mom and Abby. We had a fun afternoon, thanks to the recommendations of lifelong friend Kris. Now they’re napping and I’m taking some quiet time to walk and just be. The city is beautiful and it’s simply incredible to feel the sunlight on my skin. Though, our hotel room races an active convent—what is the universe telling me? May MTD 6️⃣7️⃣.6️⃣ 🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉🇮🇹 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Angelita Godinez Ridout of Twin Lake, MI, who died by suicide in February 2019. Her daughter Rikki Ridout shared, “She was a bad a** b*tch and a huge nerd. She loved the simple things in life, and loved her family ferociously. She was a dreamer and a doer. She was pure magic. She didn’t belong here. She was too otherworldly.” Sending you all the love Rikki. 💙💙 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7. #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

Made our connecting flight ✈️ thanks to the amazing crew at #unitedairlines who ensured that all the folks who had connections could disembark first. Talk about top-notch #customerservice 🫶🏻 Waiting to take off for Rome and settled in with all the necessities for an 8hr flight—Funyuns, my #PedroPaschal blanket, my #AFSP water bottle, and an incredible book 📕 Absolutely devouring “Choose Strong” by Sally McRae @yellowrunner 🏃🏻‍♀️ So much of what she has written resonates with me, deeply. I’ve highlighted, underlined, photographed so many passages. And have more than once been left breathless as her words mirror things I have felt or thought during my own lifetime. Thank you, Sally McRae, for letting others like me know we’re not alone. 💙💙 I’ll definitely be done with this before we land in Italy 🇮🇹 If you’d like to borrow it lmk, but I want this one back 💯 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

Penelope and I snuck out before the other two noticed and got in a really good 2 miles. My usually camera shy girl was all smiles afterwards 🥰 May MTD 6️⃣6️⃣.4️⃣ 🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Steve Amirault of Salmon Creek, Humboldt, CA, who died by suicide in September 2010. I’ve remembered Steve many times in the last few years, and I feel him with me on many occasions. I often think that he and Teddy would have gotten along together quite well. His sister Michelle shared, “I miss my big brother beyond measure. He was an amazing self-taught musician and drums were his passion. I was always in awe when I watched him play and when he wasn’t playing he would be tapping on anything and everything around him. We shared a love of music. He was also a kind, compassionate, thoughtful, fair and funny old soul! I can still hear his loud, from the gut, laugh! He was the best big brother, son, father, uncle & grandfather. We will always keep his memory alive by sharing our stories and memories and saying his name.” Today is Michelle’s birthday and I saved this day for her as much as for Steve. For surviving siblings, our own birthdays are just as difficult as are the birthdays of our lost siblings. They are reminders that we continue to grow older while our siblings remain frozen in time. That longest relationship we should have was severed abruptly. Michelle, thinking of you and sending you all the love today and every day. 💙 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7. #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

☕️ It’s thundering ⛈️ right now, and I’m still out on the deck. And once the umbrella goes up, I’ll even be out here when it rains.☕️ I’ve got a few things to wrap up this morning before we leave, and I’m going to take a special walk with just Penelope. Abby and I get picked up at 11, and meet Mom at Logan ✈️ for our ladies generations adventure. I’m looking forward to being present with them, and not having competing priorities, making memories, and laughing lots. ❤️ I’d like to say I hope I don’t embarrass Abby and MG, but we know that’s going to happen no matter what. So, whatever I do, I hope it’s funny. 😆 Arrivederci!! 💼✈️🇮🇹❤️🎉 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7. #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

Truly fun family pack walk tonight. I love spending time with my kids. They’re good humans. And we laugh. A lot. Number of times Gus peed 2️⃣3️⃣ At the end, I decided to jog Eldridge street. Much to Abby’s chagrin, even Gus enjoyed it!!! 🏃🏻‍♀️ 🐕 May MTD 6️⃣4️⃣.4️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of José Luis Ortiz of Guayama, Puerto Rico, who died by suicide in November 2006. Today is his heavenly birthday. 🎂 This was requested by my dear friend Carlos. José was his uncle—more like a brother—and these birthdays and milestones are so difficult even after decades. Holding space for you, your family, and all who love and miss José. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7. #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

☕️Even though I’m exhausted today is an exciting day—it’s my first deck coffee. And it’s not disappointing at all … The blue jays are LOUD. it’s already close to 70°. The dogs are so lovey with me. It’s a really good morning.☕️ So reporting back, I did the scary thing and made the big, bad phone call. The Verizon rep was lovely—I told her that she was an absolute angel and even filled out the post-call survey. Set a timer after work and worked on my clothes-planning spreadsheet. Yes, of course I have a spreadsheet. It includes the expected temperature of each location, too. And I put my day/night outfits into labeled plastic bags because I can’t handle disorganization. And, in a feat unknown to man, I am packing only 4 pair of shoes 👟👠👡🩴 Tonight I’ll deal with toiletries, books, accessories, packing, checking in at the airline, having another pre-trip meltdown. You know. Only the essentials. I plan to sleep on the plane. Hard. I will need it. Already, this is the longest short week ever, and the trip has little to do with the stress!! ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

I was wicked tired from last night’s late bedtime, and mentally worn from a few things weighing on my mind. It showed in my workout. What should have been an easy 5 miler ended up being a tough 3 miles. My ♥️ rate was a lot higher than usual and I ended up walking some after the workout was complete. May MTD 6️⃣3️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 1: 11:39 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 2: 11:36 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 3: 11:30 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Mike Garner of Ringgold, GA, who died by suicide in August 2021. His son-in-law Ben Palmer shared, “We miss Mike’s smile, laugh and ability to make the best out of any situation. He was a caring husband, father, friend and co-worker. He would give the shirt off his back to anyone in need and not ask for anything in return. He was gracious with his time as well as talent’s, taking on projects for those who couldn’t do for themselves. He was someone special to all of us, in one way or another!” I first met Ben in an online running group; but we soon learned we were also part of this terrible club as well. Ben and all your family, sending much love. 💙💚🪽 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

☕️ Had a bit of a late night—Abby had car trouble on her way home from Newport last night (she is ok but needed a tow and a ride).☕️ I attempted the Verizon thing yesterday. Really, I did. But, I couldn’t figure out how to set it up for me and Abby through the online portal so I need to do the dreaded thing… Make a phone call. I could talk to a total stranger anywhere. But ask me to make a phone call and I turn into one of those pill bugs that curl up into themselves. I truly would rather be trampled by a herd of angry water buffalo wearing metal spikes. 🐃 Or watch 24 straight hours of “The Curse of Oak Island” So… Guess what I’m tackling before I do anything else today? Yep, the scariest thing ever. That big bad phone call. Because I can do hard things. And so can you. What’s your hard thing today? How can I support you and cheer you on? Let me know in the comments below. ⬇️⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

All I have definitively packed/planned for Italy 🇮🇹 👟 🏃🏻‍♀️ That counts right? 😂 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #travelrunning #travelrunners

Gus was too angry for words, but I wanted some alone time with Penelope today. 🐕 Hit 6️⃣0️⃣ miles for the month with 11 days still to go! 🏃🏻‍♀️🫏 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Michael Sandoval of Melvin, TX. His wife Lynn shared photos and his obituary, but not what she missed of him; so I spent some extra time reading about Michael. I learned that Michael enjoyed “picking”—searching out treasures and considering his daughter Jessica among his most “special find.” I read that “Michael was a notorious jokester and could make anyone laugh with his crazy stunts.” I also learned that Michael was disabled following an accident, and that he was preceded in death by both parents and most of his siblings. I imagine that losses of that magnitude impacted his life significantly. Sending love to Lynn and Jessica and all who love and miss Michael. 💙💚🪽 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

☕️ As much as I LOVE Mondays, even I could use an extra day between Sunday and today this week. 🥱 Abby, Mom, and I leave for Italy on Thursday. A trip of a lifetime, and so special as a ladies generations trip. Looking forward to the sights but even more so toward the memories and the laughs we’re sure to have together. 🇮🇹 But with travel, comes a lot of stress. At least for me. Add in Teddy’s anniversary, mental health awareness month, graduation and a stressful last work week and my brain has not been ok. I used the word “misfiring” and that’s as close as I can get to explaining how I’ve felt lately. I’ve been forgetful (I mean I thought we were entering the winter season!). Short-fused. Dysregulated. Experiencing deeper depression than usual. Needless to say, I forgot to order Euros. I have a spreadsheet built of our itinerary, the expected weather, and blank spaces for outfits but they’re BLANK. I have yet to call Verizon for international phone service. I said the other day, “Packing is a Wednesday night problem.” Which translates to: Do not come within 3 miles of my house on Wednesday night. Because there will be a tornado 🌪️ called Jenny encasing it. I will be digging deep to make it through the next three days. 🧘🏻‍♀️ Practicing grounding, mindfulness, and other ways to stay regulated when things feel overwhelming. 🏃🏻‍♀️ Making sure I stay active. Getting those workouts in always help me feel better when I can’t control much else in my life. ⏱️ Setting a timer for 30 minutes and choosing a task and getting what I can done in that time. That always helps—it’s a small amount of time and doesn’t feel overwhelming. ☑️ Choosing one big task for each day. Today that’s setting up the international phone and data service. Any suggestions to help me stay organized this week? To make packing easier? Drop them in the comments below ⬇️⬇️⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 988 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #teamsfap #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #suicidelosssurvivor #siblingloss #suicideprevention #mentalhealth #healingmiles #itsoktonotbeok #griefjourney

Even though it’s a little misty outside ☔️ I wanted to get out for at least one mile. My favorite red shoes 👠 are so comfy I didn’t both swapping them for sneakers. Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Brayden James Hanzelka of Victoria, TX, who died by suicide in March 2024. His mother Adrianna Flores shared, “I miss my son so much. He was the baby of my 4 kids. He was funny, outgoing, and one of my protectors. He FaceTimed me just about everyday and still called me ‘momma’.” Brayden loved sports of all kinds, including football and the New England Patriots. He was known as a jokester with a giant heart, and he loved to prank his siblings. Brayden was just 18 years old. This hit me like a gut punch. Today, especially, as I have just returned from my own daughter’s college graduation. A milestone that Adrianna will never experience for Brayden. Adrianna sending you and your whole family so much love. 💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

☕️Up bright and early for Abigail’s graduation day 👩‍🎓 It’s another milestone that Uncle Teddy should be here to celebrate. Abigail is a lot like her godfather in many ways—she is one of the most gentle, kindhearted souls I know … Sometimes the exact opposite of me.She is all soft edges and delicate and warm. When I write that I think of my favorite photo of me and Teddy at the beach #iykyk Abby, we are all so ridiculously proud of you. While Uncle Teddy can’t physically be there with us today, I know he’ll be walking by your side. 💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

The last time I wore this dress that I can remember was at an AFSP event in 2022, just after my second Boston Marathon. At the time, I weighed 20lbs less than I do now. But I recall the shapewear digging into my sides, and hoping my giant hair distracted from the fabric pulling at my 🍑 butt. Today the dress is loose. I’m not wearing shapewear. And I even pulled my hair into a bun (which was always a huge no no if I was trying to draw attention from all my other perceived flaws). That scale? She’s a total fckn liar. Here to prey on every insecurity I’ve held onto since I was ten years old and measuring the size of my growing thighs. I’m wearing the dress. I’m eating the cake. I’m not feeling guilty. And that scale can collect dust. Because she isn’t my friend. (And you bet your a$$ my first text was to Coach E!!!!) #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner

The girls 🐕 🐩 were quite happy to join me for a walk, even in the drizzle ☔️ Gus had to stay back because I can’t handle all three dogs alone midday when there are lots of people out and about. May MTD 5️⃣6️⃣.3️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 Needed the alone time to collect my thoughts ahead of a busy afternoon and evening celebrating Abigail’s baccalaureate mass and dinner and friends in Newport, RI. And, of course, reflecting on another soul we’ve lost too soon … 💙💚 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Michael A. Letz of Council Bluffs, Iowa, who died by suicide in June 2021. His friend and partner Dorinda shared, “I miss his smile, bright blue eyes and his live in the moment attitude! He always put others first. He would do anything for anyone! He literally made sure everyone was ok mentally, physically, and emotionally before anything. He was so much a ray of sunshine for everyone who knew him. He is so missed!“ So many of us have lost someone who reminds us of Michael—caring and selfless, bright and funny. Masking their own pain. Please reach out. We would do anything for you. We love you. 💙💙💙 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

☕️Early 💅 manicure appointment and a busy day ahead as we kick off Abby’s graduation weekend, so I’m up early this Saturday morning.☕️ Last night was definitely just what I needed—even if I didn’t know it. You know I love my buffalo wings from Wendell’s. It was a total madhouse, but didn’t disappoint (I mean, it never does!), even though they were out of Corona. But, I also adore the regular waitstaff; and because I go there so often, they remember me as well. By my order (Corona Premier with a lime, 3.5 bone in with blue cheese and a side of fries). We don’t know one another’s names and we don’t need to. But it’s nice to know that someone remembers you and even on a hectic night has a smile and kindness to share. Now time to finish this coffee and get that pre-Italy mani! Glad to have hit reset last night. 💙💙 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

Luna tried to climb into my gym bag earlier but she didn’t make it. That’s 4 years in a row for Luna. 🐈 Thought about going for a #longrun to sage away the 💩 week but I have a chance to spend some time with everyone at home tonight, and would much rather do that and get a good night’s sleep after last night’s bedtime. May MTD 5️⃣4️⃣.5️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 Today’s Healing Miles are for Kai Harvey, of Staffordshire, UK, who died by suicide in 2020. I first walked for young Kai in 2021, and feel that I’ve gotten to know Kai and his beautiful family over the last few years. Kai was talented and sweet and funny. He loved the bands Joy Division and The Smiths, which I also have loved since high school school. His big family loves and misses him terribly. Through Kai’s mom Lynette I met Angie Comeford, who carried Teddy on her annual WALK OF HOPE. Lynette and family, these miles were for you and Kai. Love you. 💙💙💙 Kai is one of the angels I feel with me always. 🪽 🇬🇧 Text SHOUT to 85258 in the UK to text with a trained Crisis Volunteer 🇬🇧 🇺🇸 In the US 🇺🇸 📱☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️📱 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #wownewengland #workoutworld #egfit #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

☕️We made it to another Friday so it’s time for my Friday mug!!!!☕️ Am I still wearing yesterday’s makeup? Absofreakinglutely. It has been a longgggggg a$$$ week and this mug has never been truer than today 😅 At the beginning of Mental Health Awareness Month, I reached out to an illustrator whose work I love and whose humor is pretty close to my own. I wondered whether she’d be willing to bring this mug quote—which I actually said in a meeting many years ago, and which a colleague had printed on a mug for our whole team—to life. The fantastic @katierubyillustration did not disappoint and over the last few weeks several of her other designs have resonated with me—particularly CHUB RUB. Funny story … she’s also started running, too!!!! Anyhow, many of you have asked where to get my Friday mug. ☕️ Now you can get your own!! See the #linkinbio or visit https://healing-miles.printify.me (there’s also a T-shirt and hoodie). The best part is that ALL PROCEEDS will be donated to @afspma 💙💙💙💙 I’d love to see one Friday feed filled with your coffee breaks. ☕️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

You probably can’t tell from my photos but I’m feeling pretty dysregulated today. I felt this way from the minute I got out of bed, so I tried a few of my tricks… 💄Took time with my makeup 👗Wore one of my favorite dresses 🎤 Had myself a nice car concert Thankfully had an offsite meeting, too. Which meant a rainy-day walk. Sooooooo needed. Round trip only a little under 3/4 of a mile; but the rain on my umbrella and the time to practice some of the other techniques I’ve learned helped considerably. It also gave me the perfect opportunity to think about today’s remembrance… Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Adriana of Brisbane, Australia, who died by suicide in October 2020. Her daughter Jess shared, “I just miss you mum, I wish you were here every day.” Sending you much love, Jess. 💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

☕️ What’s keeping me going this week … Purely the knowledge that one week from today I will be in 🇮🇹 with Mom and Abby. ☕️ I have a love-hate relationship with social media. Social media has been incredibly helpful to me in sharing Healing Miles, in connecting with others in the suicide loss survivor community, and in fundraising for AFSP and other mental health charities. But I fall victim to the comparison trap so often. That’s partly why I made the reel I did last night—to remind myself that I have worth even if I am not fast. And to hopefully show up in someone’s feed among all the other fast runners so a normal person knows they’re not alone. Instagram and social media is a funny thing because it’s like a highlight reel of all the awesome stuff in a person’s life. I mean, who wants to share the moments when your dog 💩 on the kitchen floor, your teenager backtalked you, or you whined that you just wanted to stay on the couch all day? (These are all real things that have happened TODAY!!!!!!!) When I find myself caught up in the comparison trap of social media, I unfollow accounts that leave me feeling less than for whatever reason. Or just take a break for a few hours. Doomscrolling is definitely not a way to support my mental wellbeing 💪🏻 Do you have social media tips to help support mental health???? Drop them in the comments below ⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

🏃🏻‍♀️ 3.6mi run after work brought me to that magic 5️⃣0️⃣ for the midpoint of the month! 🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 Used the last .6mi for a FAST sprint session. The older man next to me was getting worried but I promised him I was ok. 😂 It felt pretty good, other than I keep forgetting and wearing the shorts that my thighs just love to eat. I don’t even bother pulling them down anymore. Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Matthew Reese Kennedy of Conroe, TX, who died by suicide in March 2009. His mother Kristine shared, “I miss his daily military history lessons, I miss his sense of humor, his smile!! I miss everything about my boy. He had a light that would light the whole room when he walked in! He was funny, sweet, loved military history, his NJROTC family and wanted to be a Marine more than anything!” I’ve honored Matthew before and will again and again because these little moments can bring comfort to those of us left behind. Kristine, I held you in my heart during my run as well. 💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

Just one photo from my lunchtime walk today but this view made me smile. Walked with one of my dearest friends—more of a sister than a friend TBH! Thank you 😘😘 May MTD 4️⃣6️⃣.4️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit

Massachusetts friends‼️ Have you heard about the cool 😎 #AFSP #MentalHealthAwareness Month promo? Here’s your chance to earn brand new swag to help shine light on suicide prevention! Register for your local Out of the Darkness Community Walk in Massachusetts and fundraise during Mental Health Awareness Month! If you’re heading to Easton, join Daisy, Penelope & I on Team KTB: Walking for Hope #LinkInBio or https://supporting.afsp.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.team&teamID=341648 Raise $250 between May 1 and May 31 to earn a Talk Away the Dark swag box complete with a lightbulb stress ball, embroidered hat and insulated water bottle! ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ **Offer valid for Fall 2024 Out of the Darkness COMMUNITY events in Massachusetts only. Does not apply to the Out of the Darkness Overnight senes. Funds must be posted online between 12 00AM on Wednesday, May 1 and 11:59PM on Friday. May 31 Gifts are awarded based on individual fundraising efforts, not team totals. Recognition items to be mailed in June The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention reserves the right to substitute an incentive item of equal or greater value. #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalheathmatters #mentalhealthadvocate #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

☕️ Need. More. Coffee. ☕️ Yesterday a sweet runner friend’s PTSD was activated suddenly and surprisingly at an airport following an amazing vacation. Reading her update in our group, my heart fell and I wished that I could rush to help get her through the moment. But I was also struck by her comment that she felt she couldn’t share this on her own page because her IRL family and friends only want rainbows and sunshine. And then the comments of others who shared they really only feel comfortable sharing negative things in our little community for the same reason. That breaks my heart for so many reasons. The smallest of which being that those in our lives should be those we should be able to reach out to in a crisis. But so often we know we cannot. I see it in my own life as well. My biggest supporters are often runners and loss survivors I’ve never even met. Family members scroll past my mental health content, never interacting, and only click “like” when I am not posting about suicide loss or something that isn’t “negative” — and others who should be my closest relatives don’t interact ever or at all. I know when I have a serious mental health crisis, I cannot reach out to those closest to me by blood. They don’t want to hear from me. Until then, keep sharing where you feel comfortable. We’ve got your back. Always. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

After last night’s #holdmyhoops workout, I kept it to an easy-paced 3mi run 🏃🏻‍♀️ May MTD 4️⃣3️⃣.5️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 (Tomorrow is halfway through Mayyyyy) Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Paul P3 LaRochelle II of Auburn, MA and Chicago, IL, who died by suicide in February 2014. His sister Kim O’Brien shared, “I miss just about everything… His smile, his laugh, his hugs, his advice, all of him.” Kim and family, sending you all love today and every day. 💙 Kim is just one of the many AFSP volunteers and supporters I’ve gotten to know over the last few years. Each year, she and her family lead the AFSP #OutOfTheDarkness Community Walk team #4Rheal in Central Massachusetts. Last year, I was able to walk with Kim for a bit, and it made my heart happy—so often her social media posts have made me feel seen in my own grief and journey as a suicide loss and sibling loss survivor. I encourage you to consider joining a team or forming your own … The AFSP #OOTD Walks are beautiful hope-filled days. My family and I will be at the Easton Walk this year, along with The Kacie Project and the Ploude Family of Taunton … As Team KTB: Walking for Hope, in memory of Kacie Palm, Teddy Fusco, Jr., and Brett Ploude. Please join us! #LinkInBio or https://supporting.afsp.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=register.start&eventID=9981&teamID=341648 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #egfit

It’s an in-office day. It’s 73° and the ☀️ is shining. You bet your sweet 🍑 I went for a lunchtime walk! Was much needed, too. Had a moment this morning—had to advocate for myself and find a quiet spot after I spent 90 minutes trying to focus on a single sentence 🤦🏻‍♀️ I shouldn’t have waited so long but glad I finally did. Finally stopped at the coffee truck ☕️ and it was worth it! The man was so kind and even let me snap his photo 📷 May MTD 4️⃣0️⃣.1️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit

☕️I seriously don’t understand why Gus is so tired. This little dude sleeps 20 hours a day and definitely did not run 6mi last night before bed. ☕️ At the blessing of the bikes on Saturday, one of the conversations I had was with a fellow loss survivor around friendships. She mentioned to me and AFSP board member Laura that she found her circle of friends had changed since her fiancé died by suicide. Both Laura and I smiled knowingly—we had similar experiences following our losses. We shared our own personal stories of secondary loss, noting that we each held on to several “constants” who stuck by us and held us up and we just couldn’t stand on our own and are still here by our sides. But also noted how grateful we are for our new circle of friends. Friends who understand, who accept us for who we are—even though we are broken. Laura and I would never have met otherwise. She’s now one of my closest friends. But Josh and Teddy brought us together and for that I am thankful. 💙 My circle today loves and supports me as I am, donkey laughs and all. And I love them so loud for it. It can be scary to watch “old” friends disappear, but what remains is often just as if not even more beautiful. 💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

Had an onsite meeting this afternoon, so wore my running shoes with my dress and threw my gym clothes into the car so I wouldn’t make any excuses. Told myself this was a #holdmyhoops kind of run 🏃🏻‍♀️ Wanted to see what I had in me. The whole gym heard what I had in me—mostly swearwords and grunts and growls 😂 😂 😂 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 1: 11:35 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 2: 10:40 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 3: 10:45 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 4: 11:30 recovery mile 🥵 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 5: 11:10 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 6: 10:50 Average pace 11:00 🏃🏻‍♀️ May MTD 3️⃣9️⃣.5️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 Tonight’s Healing Miles were in memory of Matthew Edward Tierney of Boca Raton, FL, who died by suicide on this day in 1983. I got to know his brother Brian through my favorite running group and we bonded through our shared loss. Brian shared that he misses Matthew’s smile and laughter. Brian also shared that 40 years ago, support didn’t exist for survivors of suicide loss. I imagine that made things quite difficult for him—navigating this horrible time after has only been possible for me because of the support of the loss survivor community. Brian, I carried you in my heart throughout tonight’s run. Every F 💣 I dropped was for you and the total unfairness of this path you walk. I love you, my friend. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #wownewengland #workoutworld #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythefark

Miss Penelope enjoyed her solo time today. I had 20 minutes between calls for lunch and it was too nice to waste it inside. This is the first of two Healing Miles remembrances today. It’s always a little extra special when I have a personal connection … This walk was for Ronald Todd, Jr. of Florida who died by suicide in February 2024. I met his sister Katie shortly afterward, though I didn’t know her as a loss survivor at that time. I met her as the woman whose dog walking crew stepped in to care for my #PGDcrew when I returned to in person work. Katie shared, “It’s fresh so there are very mixed emotions and details are still emerging from the last few months. I’ll forever miss his laugh and knowing he would be there if I needed him.” That feeling of mixed emotions—particularly during the early days—resonates with me. I remember feeling allllll the things but most often anger. And then as I learned about how my brother spent his last days and piecing together details feeling that tyranny of hindsight that we loss survivors often talk about. Katie, sending you love today and every day. 💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

☕️You can’t see him, but Gus is in this picture—he’s just hiding under my leg…I guess Gussy just doesn’t love Mondays as much as I do!!!!☕️ You know by now that Mondays are my absolute favorite day of the week. Even when I’m tired like today—and I have no reason to be… I napped yesterday afternoon and was in bed before dark! If you’re new here, I love the endless possibilities of a new week. The clean slate. The fresh start. I don’t have any big goals for this week, other than to start making lists and packing for Italy! 🇮🇹 Oh, and to prepare for this little thing called Abigail graduating from college! 👩‍🎓 So I guess my BIG GOAL this week is to remain focused. That might be challenging! I am not great at that when I have big things on my mind, so will set timers to focus on small tasks and shut out all distractions but putting my phone on DND or in the other room. Any other suggestions to keep me on task? My brain is like a pinball machine right now. Drop your tips ⬇️⬇️⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

After a wonderful family Mother’s Day dinner with all 3 kids and Mam-ma Grace and Papa Ted, Abby and Joey joined me and the dogs for a walk around the block. Gussy was so proud of himself for being a big boy on the big 1.4mi walk. 🐕 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Timothy “Tim” Garry of Holliston, MA, who died by suicide in September 2023. My heart goes out to his mom Joanne, spending another Mother’s Day without Tim. The walk was requested by Tim’s uncle, Tom, who refers to Tim as TG21. He shared that he, his son, a cousin Tanya, and Tim referred to themselves as the four TGs. They’d get together for birthdays or other major events to celebrate. With their fourth now missing, I imagine every major milestone will feel empty in some way. Sending you and all who love Tim love. I was struck as I watched Tim’s memorial video by just how much this vibrant young man—just 30 years old—appeared to love and love his life. It speaks volumes to the saying that we never know the depth of another’s feelings. Please ask often and keep on asking. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

☕️Mother’s Day coffee in bed and I got the morning off from feeding the dogs at 4am. Looking forward to an early lunch with Mom and all 3 of my kids.☕️ Mother’s Day is not an easy holiday for many—if today is difficult for you, please know I see you. 💙 Holding space today for those who 🌸Are grieving their mom or child 🌸 Can’t be with their mom today due to distance or circumstances 🌸 Feel like they’re failing as a mom (me, every single day) 🌸 Have a complicated relationship with mom (or children) 🌸 Have struggled with infertility, child loss, or the inability to have kids Sending you all so much love today and everyday. 🌸💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

Who knew that the gym closes at 6pm on Saturday night? Not this girl. The schedule called for 8-10, but settled for one easy-paced mile since I got there shortly before closing time. May MTD 3️⃣0️⃣.7️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 It was probably for the best, though. Volunteering days are heavy mentally, even when I find them to be overall positive experiences. 💙💚🏍️🪽 And, today’s Healing Miles sat heavy on my chest … Today I ran for Tad Worland of Missouri, who died by suicide in July 2018. His sister Beverly didn’t share much about him or what she missed most in her request but noted something that resonated so deeply with me but that I will not share here for her privacy. Beverly, I don’t know if what you shared affected you or if it was just factual. But, I see you. As a surviving sibling, we often are left navigating this new world in the dark. If you ever need a light, just reach out your hand. 💡 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma

Heard so many firsthand stories today from individuals touched by mental illness and suicide. 💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma

🏍️ HOPE RIDES HERE 🏍️ Thank you to Vernon Hill American Legion Riders Chapter 435 for inviting AFSP MA to their annual Blessing of the Bikes with American Legion Riders and Redrum Warriors 4 the People. All proceeds from today’s events are going to be divided between AFSP programs for first responders and veterans and Saint Bernard’s Church Youth Programs. Such a beautiful day of community and positivity. Grateful for this experience and new friends. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma

☕️Heading to an AFSP volunteer event this morning, but time for coffee first. There’s always time for coffee.☕️ Even though I’ve been tired all week, I was looking forward to last evening’s dinner with my friend Kerri. I had such a great time, as I always do when I’m with Kerri—and so many of my BIG laughs #iykyk 🫏 And I’m looking forward to today’s volunteering alongside @afspma Laura and Jessica. 💙💚 It’s too easy to isolate when I’m feeling overwhelmed and in a funk … And I know I’m not alone. Here are just a few reasons why we should reach out for connection during those tough times: 🤝 Social interaction offers emotional support and reduces loneliness 🔍 Being around others provides varied viewpoints on challenges. 🛑 Isolation worsens depression, while socializing can prevent it from worsening. 👥 Social interaction provides insights and strategies for managing depression. There are so many other reasons, too. I’m sure you can help add to the list—drop some of your thoughts in the comments below⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma

Worked through lunch so I could get my run in before meeting a friend for an early dinner. It was a productive day and flew by, too—all three wishes from my coffee cup came true 😂 Pushed it a bit in the last mile (and may or may not have said the F word out loud while running, tooooooo) 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 1: 11:50 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 2: 11:10 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 3: 11:20 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 4: 10:10 May MTD 2️⃣9️⃣.7️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Shane Medeiros of North Carolina, who died by suicide in September 2022. His “aunt chosen” Shelly shared that she is simply heartbroken and that Shane was more loved than he knew. So many of us can identify with this sentiment, as if knowing how much they were loved could have saved our loved ones. I wish that alone was true. 💙💚 Until it becomes so, keep letting those around you know. Every single day. That they mean something to you. That they matter. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters

☕️ This felt like the longest week ever. I’m glad it’s almost over! ☕️ Many of us engage in creative outlets to manage our mental wellbeing. Obviously, for me, that includes writing. ✍🏻 I looked into the mental health benefits of creativity and here’s what I found 🤓 🎨 Creative activities like painting or writing can reduce stress by providing an outlet for emotions. 🎵 Engaging in creative expression triggers dopamine release, lifting mood and well-being. 📝 Creativity fosters self-discovery and identity, improving self-esteem. 🧘 Immersing in creative tasks promotes mindfulness and relaxation, breaking negative thought patterns. So, whether you enjoy playing music, painting, gardening, coloring, or whatever creative outlet brings you joy… KEEP ON DOING IT!!! I bet there are some creative tools others have never even considered—drop your favorites in the comments ⬇️⬇️⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #talkawaythedark #toomuchwoman #breakthestigma #wownewengland #mentalhealthmatters #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #mentalhealthawareness

Haven’t felt great all week—more just exhausted than anything, but today had a crushing headache and took my doctor’s suggestion of another day off running. But, had some fresh eggs 🥚 to deliver to a dear friend who lives exactly .75 miles away; so laced up my shoes and walked there and back adding 1.5 miles to the monthly total and spending some nice meditative time alone. It was more needed than I knew. 💙💚 Today’s healing miles are in memory of Greg Lyons of Roanoke, AL, who died by suicide in December 2017. His wife Margaret misses “His sense of humor & the way he truly loved me.” Margaret has been one of the many in the loss survivor community to lend me strength and support when I’ve needed it most. Carrying her and Greg in my heart during this walk doesn’t feel like nearly enough to repay her kindness in some of my darkest days. But we’ve all learned it’s not about repaying it’s about holding one another’s hands and taking turns leading each other through those moments. Sending you so much love, Margaret. Thank you for all you do to bring hope to those impacted by suicide. 💙💚🪽 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #talkawaythedark #toomuchwoman #breakthestigma #wownewengland #mentalhealthmatters #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #mentalhealthawareness

☕️ Can someone explain this cold weather to me, please? 😭 🥶 ☕️ This week alone, I’ve heard of several friends who have made the decision to leave an employer due to the impact of the work environment on their mental health. Fostering a workplace culture that promotes mental well-being not only benefits employees’ health and productivity but also creates a supportive and inclusive environment. Here are some practical ways to promote mental wellness and support your colleagues in the workplace: 💬 Create a safe environment for discussing mental health concerns openly ⚖️ Encourage breaks and discourage overworking to maintain a healthy balance 🧠 Provide access to counseling services, assistance programs, and workshops (most employers in the US offer an EAP program, check it out!!!) 👩‍💼 Demonstrate healthy work habits and boundaries 🤝 Foster team bonding and opportunities for colleagues to connect 📚 Offer training to raise awareness and reduce stigma 🕰️ Consider remote work options or flexible hours 🎉 Recognize achievements While some of these seem to be the “role” of the employer, I challenge employees to have difficult conversations about flexible work options when needed, to celebrate your colleagues’ achievements, and to schedule “coffee dates” via zoom if you’re remote to get to know your colleagues better! I’ve done all three and it has helped me so much both professionally and mentally. Did I miss anything???? Drop your suggestions below ⬇️⬇️⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma

There are lots of things I’m good at. Writing. Trivia. Cooking. Shenanigans. Laughing like a hyena. But not math. Math actually makes me cry. I can’t make change from a dollar. So I’m not surprised I mathed my mileage wrong yesterday. From now on, will only rely on my spreadsheet. Lesson learned. 😂 May MTD 2️⃣4️⃣.2️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 Took advantage of the break in the rain for a lunchtime walk. Such a gray day after yesterday’s sunshine, but still happy to get the steps in. Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Bob Kolquist of Granbury, TX, who died by suicide in November 2023. This retired Air Force pilot and middle school computer teacher was known for his love of his family, cars (especially Corvettes), and all things computers. I’ve remembered Bob previously. His daughter, Gina, is a fellow 🏃🏻‍♀️ runner—a member of my favorite running group, a fellow Stiletto brand ambassador, and one of my running sheroes TBH. Gina remembers her Dad as her biggest cheerleader—both in life and in general. When asked what she misses most about Bob, his daughter Gina shared: “All the things … His kind and generous heart and desire to share information with everyone. If you were interested in something, he would remember and research it and give you more information on it.” Sending you so much love, Gina, today and everyday. 💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #talkawaythedark #toomuchwoman #breakthestigma #wownewengland #mentalhealthmatters #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #mentalhealthawareness

☕️I’m having trouble waking up today. Please send alllllll the coffee.☕️ I feel so grateful to be part of a City that recognizes the importance of reducing the stigma around mental health. Last night was not the first time I spoke with Mayor O’Connell and members of City Council about the topic. Being open about mental health can help reduce stigma in so many ways … 🚫 Breaks silence, reducing shame and fear. 🆘 Encourages help-seeking behavior and normalizes seeking professional support. 🤝 Fosters understanding and support. 💬 Makes discussing mental health as common as discussing a cold or sore throat 🤗 Reduces feelings of loneliness and isolation. 🌱 Promotes healthy coping mechanisms. How can you help #talkawaythedark in your community? Drop some ideas ⬇️⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma

Thank you, Mayor O’Connell and Taunton City Council for recognizing #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth and the work of AFSP in the #TauntonMA community. Together we can #talkawaythedark and #breakthestigma surrounding #mentalhealth and create a culture that supports open discussions and access to care. Taunton is a pretty special place, and I’m glad to be a part of our City. 💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #mentalhealthmatters

I’m glad to have two Healing Miles remembrance walks today, as the Youth Mental Health First Aid training was heavy. I need the meditative time myself, and big, happy Daisy and gentle Penelope are the perfect companions. May MTD 2️⃣2️⃣.9️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 This evening, I walk in remembrance of Matthew Roussel of Tehachapi, CA, who died by suicide in February 2018. Matthew loved extreme sports, was a US Marine veteran, and an EMT. He was also the father of a baby girl—Kinnley Anne Rose—who died less than one day after birth. Like many for whom I’ve walked and ran … “Matthew had a contagious life and a smile that would light up a room. His friends were many and he was loyal to them.” His aunt Shelly shared that she is “Heartbroken. I miss his infectious smile and laugh; His curiosity for life and learning new things.” Matthew was a generous soul and it extended even after his death. As an organ donor, Matthew saved lives through organ donation. Sending love to all who miss Matthew every single day. 💙🪽 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

#mentalhealthfirstaid certified ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #mentalhealthawareness #talkawaythedark

I’m at an all-day Youth Mental Health First Aid ⛑️ training today, made possible through my employer. So grateful for this opportunity. On a break so enjoying the weather with a walk. Today’s first of two Healing Miles are for Vinny Quinn on his heavenly birthday. His cousin Don shared that Vinny was “A devoted son to his parents, role model to his brother, a godfather to my oldest son, and a great friend to countless people. He died at 26 years old after struggling with schizophrenia for four years. I miss him every day.” Sending love to all who love and miss Vinny 💙🪽 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma

☕️Legs a little sore after last night’s run but in a good way. Going to be 75°F today, so planning some outside miles for sure!!!☕️ Even before we lost Teddy, I struggled with anxiety, depression, and OCD. I never found a way to manage the negative thoughts, which only grew stronger after Teddy’s suicide … Until the weight of everyday life became too overwhelming and I was drowning in those thoughts and just went for that very first walk. Those first steps changed the whole trajectory of my own life. They saved me in so many ways. Since then, running has become a critical component of my #mentalhealthtoolkit for sooooooo many reasons. Of course, I looked into the science behind it. Here’s what I found: 💆 Running releases tension and worries. 😊 Endorphins from running enhance mood. 🧘 Focus on breath and stride brings presence. 🏆 Reaching goals boosts self-esteem. 🤝 Running groups foster connection. 😴 Running improves sleep quality. I have experienced each of these benefits firsthand. Running has become a lifeline for me, providing calm amidst allllllll of life’s many storms. Do you have an activity those has become your go-to mental health tool? Tell me in the comments below ⬇️⬇️⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #intstarunners #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark #motherrunner

1.4mi last night + 5mi treadmill run after work… May MTD 2️⃣1️⃣.5️⃣ 🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 1 11:55 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 2 23:20 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 3 34:40 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 4 44:45 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 5 55:53 I hesitated to post my mile splits, because I notice sometimes people comment on the faster times (for me) as “good” when, in reality, any effort at all is good. Faster does not equal “better” in my book. My 13-minute miles take the same effort as a 10-minute mile some days. Though today I was so tired, I forgot to take any pics in the gym except for the Healing Miles flyer that is still on treadmill 20. Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Drew Thornton of Virginia Beach, VA, who died by suicide in August 2021. Drew was just 19 years old, a whole lifetime of memories still to make. His mother Karen shared, “I miss his silly laugh, hearing him play his video games, our cups of tea, and talking about our next race. I regularly write letters to him to share my thoughts, feelings and the events where he was missed. He is missed beyond measure and loved with all of our hearts!” Karen, holding you and your family in my heart. 💙 I was able to meet Karen in person when we both ran for Team AFSP at the 2022 Chicago Marathon. She is an inspiration for me in so many ways, and I hope we can run together again someday soon. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma

☕️Slow moving this morning, even though I was in bed before the set had even set. Emotional exhaustion is REAL and I slept HARD. Definitely needed it☕️ We survived another anniversary of Teddy’s passing. 💙 Thank you to all the family and friends who reached out to us, offered support, and showed up in ways big and small. You are appreciated more than you could ever know. 💙 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma

Glad to spend time with Mom & Dad and family today—attended mass for Teddy then lunch as a family. We were missing Abigail. Thank you everyone who reached out today. I felt your love and it has kept me going. Heading home from Boston and plan to get some trail miles with Daisy 🐕 so I can have some quiet time with my thoughts. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma

Teddy, How have you been gone 7 years? Some days I’m not sure—it feels like just yesterday. Do you hear me talk to you? All. The. Damn. Time. You probably want me to shut up. But joke’s on you, I guess. We all miss you. Your laugh. Your heart. Your foolishness. Saying “F*ckn Teddy.” I try so hard to be good and do what I think you would for Ma and Dad. I know I don’t always get it right, but I’m trying and always thinking, “What would Teddy do?” You missed so much this year! Jimmy bought his first home. Joey says that “Homeowner Jimmy is way less fun than regular Jimmy.”😂 He also celebrated two years of sobriety—I know you would be so proud of him. Abby is getting ready to graduate 👩‍🎓 from college! Can you believe it? She’s had a fun senior year in Newport 🌊 and we got to see her final performances with the Salve Dance Club. I know you would have been there cheering for her. Joey is taller than me now, has a deep voice, and has sprouted a mustache 😆 He started playing rugby 🏉 like Jimmy—and he seems to really like it! I know you’d love to go to his games and watch him in action. He’s so much like you that it sometimes takes my breath away. 💙 I’m still running slowly. Do you hear every step I take? 🏃🏻‍♀️ In the last year I’ve brought you to so many races in so many places—including South Carolina and Virginia! I completed my first ultramarathon with 40 frigging miles to celebrate my 50th birthday. Yeah. I turned 50—and you’re forever 41. I don’t like that this gap is growing. I still feel you with me always, and know you’ve put people in my path for a reason. This journey with the extended #AFSP community has been so powerful. While it brings me comfort, it would be better if you were here. Love you, jerk. 💙 📱☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️📱 #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #healingmiles #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #instarunner #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters

Today wasn’t just any run. It was my #Dunkin run at #WorkOutWorld #Taunton 🏃🏻‍♀️ ☕️ I was ALL IN. Even my manicure was painted to look like a sprinkles donut 🍩 But the real reason for the run was to honor my pledge to wear the #Dunkings tracksuit for a training run if I raised $500 to support the creation of a new adolescent behavioral health unit at #newporthospital 🏥 Thanks to generous donors, we raised $750 toward this critically needed unit! Thank you. 💙 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Tommy Dubois of Salem, NH, who died by suicide on this day seven years ago. Tommy was a US Marine veteran who served one tour of duty in Iraq (he enlisted straight out of high school). Among many other things, Tommy loved his dogs Guinness and Brandon, motorcycles, guitar, snowboarding, hiking, and making his family and friends laugh and smile. Tommy’s mom Ellen shared, “I miss his hugs!! I miss actually everything. He was such a great person. Funny, kind, and loving. He didn’t have what most of his friends had growing up but never complained ... His dad and I were split up but put Tommy before everything. We all did Halloween together and holidays. So he had love that’s for sure. One of us had what the other didn’t and we worked together.” On his military service, Ellen continued, “Tommy ... served one tour overseas in Iraq. He came home with knee problems and he himself had changed ... yes, he had PTSD and it grabbed on tight. I was unaware this was happening to him. He hid that part of himself.” So many of our loved ones hid their pain. My hope is that by sharing their stories and our own experiences as loss survivors, we will encourage others to reach out for help when they are in crisis. Angelversaries are so difficult, and I hope that this brief remembrance helped you know that Tommy is still here in this world, Ellen. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #stopsuicide #talkawaythedark #instarunners #chubbyrunner #motherrunner #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp

☕️ Daisy must’ve been tired—she slept til after 5am, which a late for her. I’ll take it because I’m wiped out after yesterday’s exhausting (mentally and physically) day. ☕️ Once again, I had a topic planned (I typically plan out loose content ideas a month ahead and then replace those ideas if something is top of mind… Beginning to think I should just alter my strategy.) So, the other day a fellow runner and suicide loss survivor shared a song with me but warned me to wait til I was in a good head space to listen to it. Of course, I waited til I was at my lowest point yesterday to check it out. I was hoping it would help me sink even lower. I was disappointed that it was such a lovely song that it made me smile. I shared this with my friend who called me a “masochist” (she’s not wrong) and told me she calls that practice “sadsturbating” — to which I LOUD laughed #iykyk. 🫏 Have you ever been there? In a mood and doing whatever you can to make yourself feel even worse — intentionally? Talk about self sabotage. Christianna, thank you for calling me on my bullsh*t. I needed that so much in that moment. I also needed that laugh, at my own expense no less. Do you ever find yourself sadsturbating? Tell me in the comments below ⬇️⬇️⬇️ (And then tell me how you’re going to 🛑 yourself from doing that next time!!!) ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #breakthestigma #talkawaythedark

8mi #longrun aka attitude adjustment completed ✔️ 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 1: 12:06 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 2: 11:44 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 3: 11:38 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 4: 11:17 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 5: 11:10 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 6: 11:10 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 7: 11:05 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 8: 10:55 May MTD 1️⃣2️⃣.4️⃣🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 I’m still felling pretty low, but not to the level I felt when I left the house this afternoon. Tomorrow is a new day. 💙 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of Angie Hollis-Graf of Sellersburg, IN, who died by suicide in October 2013. Angie was a daughter, wife, devoted and loving mother, and friend to many - including one of my runner friends, Tiffany. Tiffany shared, “We met in middle school. She was such a gentle and kind soul. She loved her son to pieces and animals. I just miss the laughter and fun and her kindness.” Sending love to all who love Angie. 💙💚 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #mentalhealthawareness #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma

☕️ We made it to another Friday ☕️ Once again, I had a topic planned for today; but life had other ideas … I had a moment yesterday afternoon when I felt joy even amid the grief of the coming anniversary. The sun was shining, the dogs all lying at my feet, the backyard blue jay squawking away. It was a perfect moment. And then something terrible happened. I had to remind myself that it didn’t happen TO ME. It just happened. And now we are figuring it out, and having some important conversations as a result. It’s so easy for me to fall into old patterns, comfortable patterns, of pointing at events and saying, “There. That’s proof that I am a horrible human. A bad mom. A waste of a person.” Things that could easily send me into a spiral of shame and impulsive and self destructive behavior. As one of my oldest friends, Beth, says Breathe Pace Persist ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit

Late lunch pack walk with my three Velcro doggos 🐕🐕🐕 Forgot to start my watch til I was well past the first corner; but since it’s my very first walking route back to 2020, I know it is exactly 1.4mi. Today’s Healing Miles are for Samuel Jacob Tripp of Tampa, FL, who died by suicide in June 2021. He was just 23 years old, a whole lifetime still to live. Sam loved dancing, the beach and Boston sports. In Samuel’s obituary, his mom Lori is described as his best friend. Lori—who called Samuel OGHustler—shared, “He was a kind, gentile soul who would help any of his friends no matter what time or day. I loved his blond curls from when he was little. He loved my cooking and all the delicious jams and jellies and pickles I canned. I miss his beautiful smile. I just miss him.” Steve Palm of @thekacieproject send me this news clipping of Sam and his daughter Kacie from many years ago. Thinking of you, Lori, today and as Mother’s Day approaches. I know those holidays are painful. 💙💙 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit

☕️ I had a topic planned for today until I saw this from @drfatimarizwan in my Instagram feed and was like OOOOF 😮 She says: “I wish more people talked about how trauma makes us impulsive. We can’t cope with uncomfortable feelings so we shop, drink, jump into relationships, and say yes to things without thinking. Anything to feel better quickly. Which ultimately makes us feel even worse, afterwards.” I talked about this in therapy last night. Namely, about the progress I’ve made from this week LAST YEAR to THIS YEAR. I’ve referenced a lot “the week I 💣 my life” and boyyyyyyy did I ever. Ultimately, it ended with a decision to enter a partial hospitalization program—which truly saved my life. I was doing all the things: shopping, drinking, eating, not sleeping, engaging in harmful and self-destructive behaviors, fighting with close friends, avoiding responsibilities, and more. Now that I have distance… I can objectively say: All to subconsciously prove that negative core belief that I don’t deserve to be here while Teddy is not. So grateful for all of the support and love in my life, and for my own stubborn self putting in a sh*t ton of work this past year. I did none of those things this year. Am I sad? Of course. But, am I sabotaging my own life to punish myself for living? Nopppppeeeee. Do you ever find yourself doing this? Maybe not on as grand a scale as I did in 2023, but even little things. How can you remind yourself that you have a life worth living? Drop your thoughts ⬇️⬇️⬇️ in the comments—they might just help someone struggling!!! ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #mentalhealthawareness #breakthestigma

Started the month off with a 3mi treadmill run after work. My knee was screaming this morning, so I didn’t push myself too hard tonight. Once I got moving, it felt a lot better. 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 1: 11:55 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 2: 11:20 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 3: 11:10 May MTD 3️⃣ 🏃🏻‍♀️🫏🎉 Today’s Healing Miles are in memory of 24-year-old Kayla Marofsky of Warren, MI, who died by suicide in November 2022. Her aunt Tina shared, “Kayla was quiet but fierce. I absolutely miss her smile and her love for obscure music.” Sending you and your family love, Tina. 💙 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #toomuchwoman #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit #talkawaythedark #mentalhealthawareness

Today is the first day of Mental Health Awareness Month. Your social feeds will be filled with fantastic images and resources. Organizations will promote mental health campaigns. Companies will hold mental health “spirit weeks” and offer stuff like desk yoga. And then the sun will set on May 31st and all that will fade away. But it won’t change the facts: 💙 1 in 4 people worldwide experiences mental illness each year (but only half receive treatment) 💚 50% of lifetime mental illness begins by age 14; 75% by age 24 💙 The average delay between mental illness symptom onset and treatment is 11 years 💚 Suicide is a leading cause of death in the US—with rates rising, particularly among certain demographics (including adolescents and young adults) Losing Teddy to suicide shattered my world, leaving behind a chasm that seemed unnavigable. I am forever grateful to those who showed me hope where I was sure none existed. They helped me find purpose—in using writing to help normalize conversations around mental health and offer hope to others who might find themselves in that dark and lonely space. Each of us plays a role in shattering stigma and encouraging help-seeking behaviors. Let’s start now. ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #talkawaythedark #mentalhealthmatters #breakthesilence #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth #BreakTheStigma

#HealingMiles have been scheduled for the month of May #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth 💙💚 Beginning with beautiful Kayla tomorrow @houlewhip ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #talkawaythedark #breakthestigma #mentalhealthmatters #breakthesilence

☕️ Watching my favorite guilty pleasure TV show before I get ready ☕️ Never been so happy for a scheduled rest day—I’m totally dragging today. 🥱 I know I stayed up late last night and I have been pushing myself a little harder during workouts. But, I also know that this time of year is difficult on me emotionally. Whether I notice it or not, it drains my energy before I even get out of bed. So as much as I wish I could subscribe to the #nodaysoff philosophy, I also know that wouldn’t be good for my body or my mind. Instead, feeding my mind, deliciously trashy reality TV and coffee to prepare for the day and enjoying every moment. How do you take care of yourself on days like this? Tell me in the comments ⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit

My routine was off today due to an early meeting, so I got dressed in my workout clothes to push myself to go to the gym after work. But the day kind of derailed me. 💦 I drank nothing but coffee ☕️ 🧀 Ate my weight in cheese once again 🍪 Had nothing else nutritious I was feeling so drained. And wanted to just curl up on the couch in my robe. Almost caved to my excuses after completing some volunteer stuff after work, but something in my head said, “Just go. You’ll feel better if you do.” Went with no expectations other than to complete the scheduled 4mi run 🏃🏻‍♀️ Mile 1: 12:10 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 2: 11:43 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 3: 11:27 🏃🏻‍♀️Mile 4: 10:45 I’m up past my bedtime but it’s worth it (and I will definitely sleep well). 😴 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit

There are 13 spots still open if you would like me to honor your loved one during Mental Health Awareness Month. Such immense power in storytelling and keeping their memories alive. My brother Teddy’s 7th angelversary is coming up on May 5th. Throughout the month of May (which is also Mental Health Awareness Month) I would like to dedicate a walk or run every day to all our loved ones lost to suicide. If you would like me to honor your loved one, please complete the form here: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSf_wzPnf8btnWPmuSfAteBuqsn6kZtIJu-B19-4W6qJbpyq4A/viewform Or see LINK IN BIO ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit

☕️ Cheers to my most favorite day of the week!! Hope you have a wicked awesome Monday! ☕️ Yesterday, I reminisced about my intense dislike of someone based on how this person treated a friend of mine in 1988. “I’ll heal in Hell,” I laughed. 😈 🔥 And then we moved on. Because the dislike is not taking up space rent-free in my head, churning my stomach into knots, keeping me awake at night. That’s another feeling altogether. One that leaves us wondering, “How do I move forward? How do I let this go?” Or, in some cases, “How can I get the last word?” (Or, that last “point”) In that moment, the concept of forgiveness seems nebulous, almost out of reach. But, here’s the thing—forgiveness isn’t about taking away the pain or erasing the past. Instead, it’s more about finding peace within yourself, even amidst the sh*tstorm. It’s not easy—I’ve been there. White hot anger vibrating just beneath the top layer of my skin. Thoughts swirling in my head of all the things I could say or text or do… But to simply acknowledge the hurt, release the hold that anger has on your heart, and accept the situation for what it is without expecting change is an incredible act of self-compassion. You are worthy of that self love. So go ahead … Honor your emotions. Feel angry, frustrated, pissed the f*ck off. And then release the weight of those resentments and reclaim your peace. And then maybe get a guinea pig 🐹 or six (and get them costumes because squuuuueeeeee!) ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 ☎️ #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #dbtskills #toomuchwoman #selflovejourney #coffeeshots #legblog #selfcompassion #forgiveness

☕️ Don’t worry, Dave. I’ll be wearing pants when we meet for lunch. Though maybe I shouldn’t to draw attention away from my burned eyelashes. 😂 A friend sent me this quote: “and in the end. it’s you against you. fighting for yourself.” ~anjali chaturvedi Oof. Ain’t that the truth. I know what kind of shipwreck I operate, so my confidence level isn’t very high in the captain. But this week, I need to focus and really work at fighting for myself. Fighting against all of the heartless self-thoughts and self-destructive impulses. Giving in would mean validating that negative core belief that the universe got it wrong and it should’ve been me and not my brother. Logically, I know that is absolute bullsh*t. Teddy and I should both be here, together. It’s not an either/or situation. But, as a suicide loss survivor, this negative thought pattern is quite common. But giving in means nothing but misery for me and my kids and my family. And so, instead, I choose to fight. To dig in, like the stubborn Sicilian donkey 🫏 I am. I am worth fighting for, EVEN IF I believe Teddy was a kinder and better person than I could ever be. I am enough. 💙💙 ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit

Back in my #happyplace for a solid 6mi run 🏃🏻‍♀️ #negativesplits for the win 🏆 🎉Mile 1: 12:20 🎉Mile 2: 11:46 🎉Mile 3: 11:39 🎉Mile 4: 11:15 🎉Mile 5: 11:00 🎉Mile 6: 10:30 Heard two of my all-time favorite REM songs during my run today. I used to listen to them on my Walkman when I ran at Revere Beach in the summer while Mom walked. When I think of those runs, what I remember most is the feeling of freedom, even if Mom was walking behind me. I feel the same when I run now. 💙 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit

☕️ The other two doggos are outside chasing each other around, so Penelope is enjoying some quiet time alone with me … and a few tastes of coffee, her favorite. ☕️ We’re 8 days from Teddy’s angelversary and I still haven’t 💣 my life this year. #winning #iykyk As a suicide loss survivor, I often feel myself walking in shadows even on some of the brightest days. Experiencing—as a runner friend and fellow sh*ttiest club ever member described yesterday—highs and lows, anger and sadness, sometimes in waves, and sometimes all at once. It’s a powerful force hanging over every single day. But I’ve also found immense power in sharing my story, Teddy’s story, and the stories of all our loved ones through Healing Miles—a project born out of love, loss, and the unwavering belief that every step we take can be a step toward healing. It’s about more than just logging miles—it’s about honoring the memory of our loved ones, one step at a time. But here’s the thing: Healing Miles isn’t just about me or Teddy. It’s about all of us—coming together, sharing our stories, and really ending the stigma surrounding mental health and suicide. Because when we open up about our struggles, we create space for connection, empathy, and understanding. And, we encourage help-seeking behavior in place of shame. I encourage you to share one thing in the comments ⬇️⬇️⬇️ ☎️ If you or someone you love are in crisis, call or text 9-8-8, 24/7 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador

I almost didn’t go to the gym this morning … I felt stupid tired 🥱 The couch was extra comfy 🥰 I needed more coffee But when I started to tell myself, “I could just try to go later…” I knew I was just selling myself some big a$$ fairytales. So, I got dressed and dragged my tired carcass to the gym. Someone was on my favorite treadmill, but I chose another and just got to work. I felt really strong during mile 1 so I decided to do some “speed” work. I use the term loosely because I know my fast is many of your slow runs… Splits 🏃🏻‍♀️ Mile 1 13:00 Mile 2 12:10 Mile 3 11:10 Mile 4 10:50 That last mile was TOUGH! I pushed myself and, man, did it feel freaking amazing! 🤩 Building mileage back up after my self-imposed post-shingles + Newport half respite has already proven to be fun. Next week the REAL work starts. BRING IT 💪🏻🫏🔥🏃🏻‍♀️🎉 #healingmiles #irunforteddy #jenrunsmarathonsforafsp #mentalhealth #suicideprevention #siblingloss #afspma #teamafsp #marathontraining #runningismytherapy #stopsuicide #suicideloss #suicidelosssurvivor #griefjourney #youarenotalone #therapyworks #AFSP #itsoktonotbeok #chubbyrunner #strongnotskinny #motherrunner #keephammering #toomuchwoman #canthurtme #wownewengland #workoutworld #stilettorunningambassador #runwaycrew #egfit