I’ve learned this the hard way. My whole life I’ve avoided “negative” emotions. Anger, sadness, jealousy, fear, worry, didn’t know them. 🤷🏼♀️ not consistently, or when I did feel them I was so quick to “fix” them they didn’t stick around long. Then our son died and I’ve felt every damn one in full force. They are so overwhelming sometimes so much that I want to crawl out of my skin. I want them “fixed” immediately. The reality… there is no fix. There are also not negative emotions. Sure there are emotions we don’t want to feel all of the time but each of these emotions is also valid. Each of these emotions I’ve felt lately have been rooted somewhere in me my whole life, based on my experiences. I hate that there is no magic button to “fix” my son dying. To take away the pain our family feels. To make it easier or less emotional. Slowly though, I am learning how to sit in the uncomfortable so that once it’s gone, the next wave that comes does completely crush me. Your emotions are valid, but they don’t have to control your life. Feel them and release them. You deserve that. #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4 #1in4women #stillbirth #grief #lossmom #griefjourney #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #lossmomshelpinglossmoms #infantandbabyloss #stillbirthsupport #miscarriagesupport #babyloss #hopeandhealing #PregnancyLoss #infantandpregnancyloss
She’s been through it and she’s doing her best. I’m so proud. Things look different for us in this aspect. In our family we are both able to carry children. We’ve now each experienced the other side of delivery. The side where there is no control. The side where you watch the person you love the most go through the most beautiful and challenging life journey. Hours of pain, lack of control, excitement, fear, worry, joy, happiness. The birth of our daughter and the birth of our son both came with trauma, each in very different ways. Our daughter is living, but our son is not. When I talked to Cortney about the delivery of Tacoma she said “helpless. Just completely helpless.” And that’s exactly what it is. Watching the person you love do something you have no control over, no way to help, nothing to do. It creates the most helpless feeling. The other side of the bed is the hardest. Having been on both sides of it, I truly believe this. My wife, though. She did it. She rocked labor and delivery on the other side. She stood by me the whole way through. She supported me, loved me, encouraged me, and took care of me the best way she could. Whether it’s your husband, your wife, your partner, whoever was there they matter. The person who is grieving next to you deserves to be reminded their experience on the other side is just as valid. So to my wife, you are a rockstar and thank you for being here. 🫶🏼 #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4 #1in4women #stillbirth #grief #lossmom #griefjourney #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #lossmomshelpinglossmoms #infantandbabyloss #stillbirthsupport #miscarriagesupport #babyloss #hopeandhealing #PregnancyLoss #infantandpregnancyloss #lgbtq #lgbtqfamily #LGBTQParenting #two #mom #twomomfamily #twomoms
✨Meet Quentin✨ What better time to share this boys story than his birthday month! Thank you to his brave mama for sharing their story with us. Your strength is inspiring and you are courageous. 🫶🏼 #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4 #1in4women #stillbirth #grief #lossmom #griefjourney #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #lossmomshelpinglossmoms #infantandbabyloss #stillbirthsupport #miscarriagesupport #babyloss #hopeandhealing #PregnancyLoss #infantandpregnancyloss #infantloss #strength #courage #bravery
The time has finally come! I’m working on the final pieces of sharing Talking with Tacoma’s first story. Thank you for being patient and for sharing your story with us. 🫶🏼 I can’t wait to continue connecting with more of you. #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4 #1in4women #stillbirth #grief #lossmom #griefjourney #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #lossmomshelpinglossmoms #infantandbabyloss #stillbirthsupport #miscarriagesupport #babyloss #hopeandhealing #PregnancyLoss #infantandpregnancyloss
Talking with Tacoma is participating in their first event AND contributing. My whole goal for Talking with Tacoma was to create a community for people to feel loved, supported, seen, and heard. I’ve honestly had no idea what I’ve really been doing with it, though. 😵💫 Grief and trauma really get ya. Anyways, I’ve invited myself to join along Mikayla, from The For You Foundation, journey for planning her 5K Jog For Jax fundraiser this year and am so excited! While I know physical activity isn’t for everyone, we are creating a team for Tacoma for anyone who wants to join with us! We have a Facebook group that you can join, if you want to find the latest on event info, location, team info, and how to join! Also, if you don’t want to participate there’s going to be a coffee truck and I would love to just be able to chat with you all. 🫶🏼 AND the best part, even if you aren’t able to participate, or be there in person there will be an option for you to have your baby/babies celebrated and seen at the event. Look for more information on how to do that in the coming days! #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4 #1in4women #stillbirth #grief #lossmom #griefjourney #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #lossmomshelpinglossmoms #infantandbabyloss #stillbirthsupport #miscarriagesupport #babyloss #hopeandhealing #PregnancyLoss #infantandpregnancyloss
Believe that you can. 🩷 #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4 #1in4women #stillbirth #grief #lossmom #griefjourney #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #lossmomshelpinglossmoms #infantandbabyloss #stillbirthsupport #miscarriagesupport #babyloss #hopeandhealing #PregnancyLoss #infantandpregnancyloss
🌈 #pregnancyannouncements are not #aprilfoolsjoke . Someone you know has lost a baby, suffered a #miscarriage ,or is currently struggling with #infertility …stick with fun #pranks and leave the #pregnancyannouncement and #pregnancyposts for when it matters. 💚💛🧡❤️🩷💜💙🩵🤍 #1in8couplesbattleinfertility #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancylosssupport #pregnancyloss #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagesurvivor #infertilityawareness #infertilitywarrior #infertilitycommunity #infertilityhope #theryliecenter
Reality is our baby died but we didn’t. It’s taken time and has not happened over night, but I am ready to start living again. I am proud of so many things and feel stronger in many ways. I am ready to feel joy and happiness again. I deserve to feel joy and happiness. #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4 #1in4women #stillbirth #grief #lossmom #griefjourney #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #lossmomshelpinglossmoms #infantandbabyloss #stillbirthsupport #miscarriagesupport #babyloss #hopeandhealing #PregnancyLoss #infantandpregnancyloss
Reality... Death is the only thing we will all experience one day and it is one thing we don't talk about. I was terrified of death until Tacoma died. Som days I still am, but most days I know it’s the one thing that will inevitably happen to me one day. Death in general isn’t talked about but death in babies. 🫢 Lately I’ve realized just how many people out there in connected to simply beside we’ve all become a part of this terrible club. However, I’ve also learned that this club has some of the best supporters. Not talking about death doesn’t make it go away. It just makes it way more scary, lonely, and confusing. #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4 #1in4women #stillbirth #grief #lossmom #griefjourney #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #lossmomshelpinglossmoms #infantandbabyloss #stillbirthsupport #miscarriagesupport #babyloss #hopeandhealing #PregnancyLoss #infantandpregnancyloss #death
Not that anyone at any point would think to warn anyone about their child dying, but this uncharted territory is truly hell some days. If you’re reading this, you’re doing the damn thing. Be proud. #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4 #1in4women #stillbirth #grief #lossmom #griefjourney #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #lossmomshelpinglossmoms #infantandbabyloss #stillbirthsupport #miscarriagesupport #babyloss #hopeandhealing #PregnancyLoss #infantandpregnancyloss
I sent this video to Cortney just as an outfit check turns out it’s the very last video I have before our world was flipped upside down. Truthfully as I watch this, I struggle to remember who that person was. The carefree, innocent, naive girl. I miss her. Most days, I wish she was still around, but other days I’m thankful for who that girl is now. That carefree, innocent, naive girl, is now a strong, resilient, in other ways carefree, outspoken, driven, loving, passionate woman. Loss has a way of shaping your life in ways you never planned on. I never planned to be 1 in 4, or 1 in 100. I never planned, or thought, I would become a statistic. Naively, I thought that because I had known so many other pregnant women who had lost their baby that there was no way I could also be the 1. I was so wrong. The third trimester didn’t make me “safe”. I miss my naive thoughts like that. That “just make it through the first trimester and you’ll be good”. The “wow your belly is growing. Your baby must be healthy”. The thoughts of “I think that was a kick, okay, we’re good.” I never thought my baby would die after the first trimester, because death surrounding a baby only brings silence. I threw away that outfit I wore that day. I never wanted to see it again. I look at this video and think “how did I not know”? The truth though, no woman, no mother, should ever have to “just know in their mama heart” that their baby is dead. I talk about Tacoma because he existed. He lived, maybe not to you, definitely not long enough, but he lived and I will always be so proud to talk about him. #stillbirth #grief #lossmom #griefjourney #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #lossmomshelpinglossmoms #infantandbabyloss #stillbirthsupport #miscarriagesupport #babyloss #hopeandhealing #PregnancyLoss #infantandpregnancyloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4women #1in4
Photo 1 today after the UKs 3rd storm in a month 🤦♀️ Photo 2 what it looked like when I decorated Olivia’s grave in November knowing the shitstorm of December (not meaning the weather - although appropriate, just life and the lack of time that becomes so much more apparent). I mean, only two things will need new ties, nothing broke, but the weather has been a waterlogged shitshow 😞 . This is the 3rd Christmas Olivia should’ve been hear. My partner actually mentioned my biggest and scariest thought (which I think of daily - and worry it’s why I’m not as present as I think I should be with my LC), had Olivia been a healthy child my 2nd daughter wouldn’t be here. . Two was the want. One family of 4. I mean … 😭 😮💨 💔 . Just really hard to go through those emotions and feelings. . Also my mum came today and does come with me a few times a year, not as much as she’s like too but old age is certainly becoming a battle and that’s getting tougher too. ❤️🩹 . But only us visited. Mum dad big brother little sister and nanny. Which to me means her other grandparents don’t think about her. And I could be completely wrong but it’s a hurt feeling if I’m right. I know cemeteries aren’t for everyone but it does still ache. She will become a distant memory but not for me. . So here’s to you Olivia. Happy Christmas 🎅🎄 I hope your doing amazing things and the world is beautiful and bright we love you 🩷 Always❤️ . #tfmr #babylossawareness #1in4stillbornstilloved #christmas #grief #equalpartshappyandsad
Since October has officially come to a close, it was time to tally up the sales from the PAIL polishes so I could make our donation to @merasmission . Y'all! I am in TEARS over the fact that between the IG fundraiser we ran and the PAIL polish sales fundraising, we were able to raise and donate $105 together to help those suffering with pregnancy and infant loss. Thank you from the absolute bottom of my heart for making this first year of our PAIL Collection a complete success! I cannot wait to see what else we can accomplish together 🩷🩵 There is a small stock of the PAIL polishes still available on the FFL website, so if you missed out, be sure to grab them soon and I will still continue to donate $1 per bottle from that collection to Mera's Mission. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Y'all are so amazing! 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 #findingfeatherslacquer #ffl #Morgan #merasmission #waveoflight #waveoflight2023 #PAIL2023 #PAIL #pailawareness #charitypolish #pregnancyandinfantloss #pregnancyandinfantlossawareness #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #indienailpolish #indiepolish #indiepolishmaker #indiepolish #polishisforeveryone #nails #nailsofinstagram #indiesdoitbest
Even though my first pregnancy did not end at nine months with a living child, I am so much more than 1 in 4. I am a mother, daughter, sister, wife, cousin, granddaughter, teacher, business owner, a child of God. I’m trying to step out of the story of victimhood and embrace this experience and allow it to move through me. I will forever be changed by it, but can I also be grateful for the child that made me a mom, even if I never got to hold him? #1in4 #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4women #1in4pregnancyloss #1in4stillbornstilloved
Felt I needed to see Olivia after this week, I think I’m getting more vocal about it but there so much more needs to be done to make this taboo topic more acceptable and understood. Love to all those who lit their candles and managed to join in with #blaw and for those that struggled and had to avoid it, I feel you 🫂❤️🩹 . The struggle is real sending love ❤️ . . . #halloween🎃 #newdecorations #celebratingwithmygirlinheaven👼 #tfmrawareness #griefawareness #1in4stillbornstilloved #alwayslovedneverforgotten #mywaveoflightcandle
We shared a special morning with 1in4stillbornstilloved! We met saw old friends, made new friends, and enjoyed all that the Sienna’s Walk event offered yesterday! Thank you for the invitation! “He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.” Psalms 147:3 NLT #genesiscomfortdog #1in4stillbornstilloved #psalms1473 #siennaswalk2023 #siennaswalk #newfriends #comfortdogscare
I am SO excited to share that I received a special invitation. I will be attending Sienna’s Walk in Turlock this Saturday, hosted by 1in4stillbornstilloved! I will be meeting family, friends, and supporters of those who have experienced stillbirths, miscarriages, and infant loss. Our local newspaper, the @turlockjournal recently wrote a very informative article about this organization so you can learn more about them: https://www.turlockjournal.com/news/local/stillborn-still-loved/. “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.” Psalms 34:18 NLT #genesiscomfortdog #lcck9comfortdogs #siennaswalk #siennaswalk2023 #1in4stillbornstilloved #stillbirth #miscarriage #infantloss #psalms3418
No matter your circumstances, He is with you and He cares for you💕 His love for you is mightier than the waves of the sea. Psalms 93:4 #ttcsupport #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttccommunity #ttcafter40 #1in10endometriosis #endometriosisawareness #survivorofhope #faithoverfear🙏 #1in8couplesbattleinfertility #1in6couplesbattleinfertility #youarenotalone
As we enter the month of October we remember: the babies born sleeping, those we carried but never held, those we held but could not take home, those we came home but could not stay. Those of us who have experienced loss can tell you that their grief doesn’t begin and end in October, however, it is an important time to raise awareness, encourage and love on those who have experienced a loss, and to allow space for countless mommas, daddies, and families to share your stories. Your story matters and your baby matters. Whether it’s a due date, your babies name, date of birth, date of death, a memory, or just an emoji, please feel free to use this post to share about your baby and part your story with others. Remember, it’s ok to ask for help. If you have been thinking about seeking therapy to help you navigate your feelings after loss, consider a professional in your area who has been trained in perinatal mental health. You can find providers and groups in your area as well as those who offer Telehealth on: www.postpartum.net To get help right now call the PSI Helpline: 1-800-944-4773 or text “Help” to 800-944-4773 To learn more about the Telehealth services I provide to those who reside in the state of Florida, please visit my website: www.holdinghopeforfamilies.com You are not alone 🤍🤍🤍 #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagesupport #miscarriageawareness #infantloss #infantlossawareness #octoberispregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth #iam1in4 #1in4 #perinatalmentalhealth #maternalmentalhealth #grievingmother #perinatalgriefandloss #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancylossawarenessmonth #pregnancylosssupport #griefsucks #grieftherapy #grieftherapist #lmft #telehealth #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4pregnancyloss #yournotalone #yourbabymatters #babyinheaven #sidsawareness #stillbirthbreakthesilence #miscarriagebreakthesilence
Gone but never forgotten Lily Sue. We love you baby girl! #pregnancylossawareness #angelmommy #1in4stillbornstilloved
A stillbirth occurs every 16 seconds somewhere in the world. In the US 21,000 babies are stillborn each year. We are more than just statistics, we are humans walking around with holes in our hearts. Your babies will never be forgotten on our account. You are still a mother. We see you and we stand alongside you. “Becoming a mother leaves no woman as it found her. It unravels and rebuilds her. It cracks her open, takes her to the edges. It’s both beautiful and brutal; often at the same time.” -Nikki McCahon
Happy rainbow baby day to my little bestie 🌸💕. Olivia Ann you make me happy when my sky’s are gray. I love you to infinity and beyond my sour patch kid🌈 #rainbowbaby #nationalrainbowbabyday #notababyanymore😢 #mysunshine #weare1in4 #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4
Today is national rainbow baby day! Thinking of everyone who is on there journey to have their rainbow and to everyone who has their special little ones! . . . . . #nationalrainbowbabyday #nationalrainbowbabyday🌈 #rainbowbaby #1in4 #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #stillbornsurvivor #lifeafterstillbirth #lifeafterstillborn #miscarriageawareness #babylossawareness
We are all venturing on our most difficult journeys of our lives, and each one is different in its own special way. Share your story below #infertility #infertilityjourney #infertilityawareness #infertilitywarrior #infertilitysupport #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancylosssupport #misscarriage #misscarriageawareness #misscarriagesupport #misscarriagematters #chemicalpregnancy #chemicalpregnancyawareness #1in4 #1in8 #1in8couplesbattleinfertility #1in8couples #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #stillborn #stillbornstill loved
Bereaved Mother's Day is honored the Sunday before the traditional Mother's Day. This day is designated to honor, to acknowledge, to support, to comfort, to bring light and love to the bereaved mother. There is no greater pain than a parent....a mother....to live every day without one or more of her sweet babies. Please, please.....take the time, the effort to reach out to the mom in your life (family member, friend, co-worker, etc) who is living without one of her babies or children, no matter how recently the loss happened.....no matter how long ago that loss was. A simple text saying "I thinking of you and *baby's name* today. He/she will always be remembered." A simple email or phone call is also a good choice. Sending flowers, sending a small treat, meeting your friend for lunch or coffee just so they have someone who tries, who understands can mean a lot. A simple gesture, a kind word can bring light to a broken heart and love to the persons soul #bereavedmothersday #bereavedmothersday #babylossmama #1in4 #1in4women #1in4pregnancyloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #grievingmoms #grievingmomma #grievingmommy #grievingmom
They always say lightning doesn’t strike twice, well it did my first angel was taken on September 27th 2016 at 12weeks,my second angel on March 6th 2022 this was called a silent miscarriage. My beautiful boy was then born sleeping on 6th August 2022. Today marks a year since I lots my second babe so I pushed myself that but harder on my walk. My 100k walk through March for @sandscharity is keeping me going along with my two gorgeous boys 🧡💙 #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #mybabys #im1in4 #1in4 #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #fyp
The last two days I have been battling sinus issues and did not realize yesterday was “National Sons Day” I want to give a shoutout to the one who calls me mom everyday🥰 Graysen is my energetic 9yr old who loves all things dinosaurs, animals, and pokemon. He is one of the most caring little boys you will meet. Earlier tonight, he checked on me and saw I wasnt feeling well. He decided to bring his axolytl squishmallow (and mine) and sat beside me to cheer me up as we watched tv together. It was the cutest thing. (2nd photo) Graysen is my 🌈child. Before Graysen and after, I had miscarried and even had an ectopic pregnancy. Those losses were really hard but it always makes me so grateful that I was able to have Graysen💙🙏 @americanmothers #nationalsonsday #autismmom #autismawareness #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4women #momandson #motherhood
Working on knitting small headbands and soon hats to donate to our local hospital. When we lost our son at 17 weeks {a handful of years ago now} we received a small hat he wore and a little blanket he was wrapped in. I still treasure those items to this day. I’ve always wanted to do something to return the favor so other loss Mom’s can have a memento of their baby. #lossmom #miscarriage #angelbaby #1in4 #1in4women #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #angelbabyhats #angelbabyheadbands #knitting #knittingproject
1 in 4 women will lose a baby during pregnancy, delivery or infancy. We honor all of these mothers and the tiny footprints that are forever etched in their hearts💕💕 October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month - an opportunity to recognize the silent grief so many carry💕💕 Be kind and thoughtful when inquiring about someone’s uterus😉 #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #medicine #mama #grief #grace #grit #happyendings
Running with the Angels event to raise awareness and support for families who’ve experienced pregnancy and infant loss. We had a good time this year 🥰👼. Also, apparently I’m the only one who didn’t understand the assignment (slide 9) 🤣 @noelalexandriafoundation #pregnancyandinfantlossawareness #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth #5k #colorrun #runningwiththeangels #nicu #nicunurse #nicuteam #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #iam1in4
October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month. This month we honored the lives of our angels gone too soon and we give space for bereaved parents to share (or not). But I think it’s time to talk to the support system as well. So many times our friends and family don’t know what to say, how to comfort us and find the topic very awkward. So here’s 5 things that we Angel parents want you to know. Angel Parents, feel free to comment a few more below ❤️🩹 #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancylossawarenessmonth #pregnancylosssupport #pregnancylosssurvivor #pregnancylossquotes #stillbirth #stillbirthawareness #stillbirthsupport #miscarriage #miscarriagesupport #miscarriageawareness #medicaltermination #terminationformedicalreasons #tfmrawareness #tfmrbreakthesilence #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4 #1in4stillbornstilloved
October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month. This month we honored the lives of our angels gone too soon and we give space for bereaved parents to share (or not). But I think it’s time to talk to the support system as well. So many times our friends and family don’t know what to say, how to comfort us and find the topic very awkward. So here’s 5 things that we Angel parents want you to know. Angel Parents, feel free to comment a few more below ❤️🩹 #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancylossawarenessmonth #pregnancylosssupport #pregnancylosssurvivor #pregnancylossquotes #stillbirth #stillbirthawareness #stillbirthsupport #miscarriage #miscarriagesupport #miscarriageawareness #medicaltermination #terminationformedicalreasons #tfmrawareness #tfmrbreakthesilence #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4 #1in4stillbornstilloved
I know it’s a sensitive topic for some and this is new to others, but October is also infant and pregnancy loss awareness month. 🎀 💙 • 1 in 4 women have experienced a miscarriage, infant loss or stillbirth, and suffered in silence. • So I would like to take a moment to remember and honor those babies born sleeping, those we’ve carried but never met, those we’ve held but could not take home, the ones that came home but could not stay. 🤍 • And this matter is really personal, and close to my heart, because I am one, I’ve suffered a miscarriage, I know the heartbreak, and I am here for you, I see you, I grieve with you. ❤️🩹 • So this October 15th Help break the silence, assist a grieving mama out there and just listen, we just need to be heard, help remember our angels 👼🏼 • We are all united in a very special way, We have an angel baby in our family too 🫶🏼 • • • • #pregnancyandlossawareness #pregnancyandlossawarenessmonth #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4isme #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4pregnancyloss #october15th #october15th2022 #pregnancylosssupport #pregnancylosssurvivor
This week our shop window will look a little different, we’ve hired some pink and blue lights and will be turning our window pink and blue to support baby loss awareness week. #babylossawarenessweek #babylosssupport #babylosscommunity #weare1in4🕯 #weare1in4ofchildloss #weare1in4 #1in4 #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4isme
Happy 4th Birthday Sweet Boy 👼🏻 Keep watching over your sisters! Love Mama, Papa, Milo, Jazzy & Baby W 💙 #babyandinfantlossawareness #1in4stillbornstilloved
October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. Remembering our precious baby girl, Katelyn💕 #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4 #ParentsToAnAngel #momToAnAngel #DadToAnAngel
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Adelyn is our rainbow baby! After losing 3 babies and struggling to get pregnant I gave up! And then she came at the most unexpected time and now she’s here!!!! My ears and inbox are always open if any mamas ever need to talk!! I am 1 in 4 but often times if feels so isolating #1in4 #1in4women #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4isme #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4pregnancyloss
I am often brought to tears by the stories and posts on my Instagram feed . The women I follow have endured such great losses and heartbreak. This years wave of light 2022 is approaching and I would like to gift one of my candles to an Instagram follower . . To enter … * follow IVFHarrisonPrints * tag a friend * share this post on your story or IG post Winner to be drawn 30/9/22 #waveoflight #waveoflight2022 #babylossawareness #babyloss #babycandle #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancyloss #sands #tommys #sandsbabyloss #1in4women #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #angelbaby #carriedforamomentlovedforalifetime #rememberancecandle #ivfloss #ivfjourney #ttcjourney #bereavedparents #bereavedmother
Today is Remington’s due date. It’s crazy to think I was in labor exactly 6 months ago though. Something that has been really hard for me to process is how to tell people about him. Like did I miscarry him, was he a stillborn? I always fall short on the words because neither situation exactly fits. I carried my son for 15 weeks, I held him and kissed him. I counted his 10 finger and toes and took in all the little details - like how he loved to hold up his big toe like a thumbs up almost. I also had to bury him and say goodbye. So his birth doesn’t fit into a box like so many other mamas I’ve met. Last night I prayer journaled and I asked the Theotokos for peace for today. I feel it. I’m sad, I’m sad I’m not prepping for labor - he probably would have been late like his brothers. I’m sad I never got to feel him move. I’m sad that I will never hear his cry or laugh or see that little milk drunk smile. I’m just really sad but also at peace knowing he’s in Heaven and better than ok. He knows a peace and joy we could never understand. I miss you my sweet Remington James!! Happy due date sweet baby. **This is Augusts feet, not Remi’s ;) #duedate #miscarriage #latetermmiscarriage #boymom #stillborn #infantloss #pregnancyandinfantloss #1in4 #1in4stillbornstilloved #littlebro #Orthodoxmom #Orthodoxkids #coloradomom #coloradokids #noco #lifeinnoco #angelbaby
🌿Taking a moment to remember you today. My sweet boy. Gone too soon. 🌿 Today you would’ve been 7. How did that happen? Unbelievable. And despite the years that have passed, I remember the summer of 2015 distinctly. Even more so, the moment I accepted something was wrong. How utterly gut wrenching it was. I didn’t want to believe it. Accept it. Acknowledge anything that was happening. But I had to. Because It. Was. Happening. 🌿 May you find the joy in your own children each and every day. Hold them close. Grieve for those you’ve lost. Tell your stories. Say their names. Acknowledge their creation and the losses their parents will carry with them forever. 🌿 All those years have passed since that day. Yet I remember the harrowing 48 hours like it was yesterday. It’s burned in my brain. In excruciating detail. The amazing care providers who walked us through the most terrifying experience of our lives. The family who supported us. The individuals who acknowledged that he was here - if only for a moment. I remember you all - on this day of your birth. And I’m eternally grateful for the care and grace you gave. To my baby in the sky - 💕 . . #infantloss #iam1in4 #stillbirth #ic #cervicalincompetence #griefjourney #griefjourney #babyloss #miscarriage #1in4stillbornstilloved #bornstill #bornstillbutstillborn
Always remember …💕💕 Your brave. Your strong. You will always be a mommy. Place your hand on your heart and always remember that love you feel , keep hold of that. I feel like when you lose a baby we get looked at differently I feel like we get labelled under the bracket of a “bereaved parent” and yes we are , but we are know different we are still the same person , does anyone else feel like this or is it just me ? I feel like people struggle to approach because they feel bad or don’t know how to talk about the baby loss , but it’s okay to talk about it , I would rather talk about it because my baby was here so why shouldn’t I be able to talk about the baby girl I lost? My baby was born , my baby lived but unfortunately passed away , it’s the worst a parent can go through . But I feel like people class it as such a taboo subject , surely we should be “normalising” baby loss so people don’t feel so alone? Love from one mommy to another 🤍 . . . . . . #angelbabyloss #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancylosssupport #pregnancylossjourney #pregnancylosssurvivor #pregnancylossquotes #pregnancylosshealing #newbornloss #newbornbabyloss #neonataldeathawareness #neonataldeathsupport #1in4women #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #babyloss #babylossawareness #babylossawarenessweek #babylosssupport #babylosscommunity #babylosssurvivor #babylossawarenessmonth #babylossawarenessday #babylossawarness #babylosscommunityuk
Every donation big or small will make a huge difference to bereaved families. Here are some of what your donations can do. Over the next few months we will be sharing how some of these have helped support us, from @heartintheirhand, to the @4louis.charity memory box, to the @cuddlecot_ (that gave us the precious gift of time). To donate follow the link in our bio #babyloss #wayoftheroses #cuddlecot #4louis #handintheirheart #giftoftime #memorybox #inmemoryof #runningforp #saytheirname #stillborn #stillbirth #miscarriage #latemisscarriage #1in4 #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #breakthesilence #childloss #babylosscommunity #babylosscommunityuk #bereavedparents
My forevrr baby with the Bunny. #1in4stillbornstilloved
Today would’ve been your 17th birthday. There’s so much I wish I could share with you. Your sister turned 16 just a week ago, you would’ve been the protective big brother for her, I had the courage to walk away from my EMS career for my own well-being, and we would be throwing you a kick ass party today. There are times I still breakdown and utterly crushed you never got to take your first breath, or have a first birthday, or say your first words, or… or… or… I will be using you and Serenity to give me strength to attend a business opportunity today for powerful women that you would be so proud I’m apart of. Part of me just wants to cry all day, and stay in bed and mourn you all over again. I love you, Damian and mama will see you in the next lifetime. Happy Heavenly Birthday. #stillborn #stillbirth #stillbirthawareness #stillbornbaby #parentsofstillbirth #stillbirthsupport #stillbirthbreakthesilence #stillbirthsurvivor #heavenlybirthday #restinpeace #parentswholostachild #motherwholostachild #1in4 #1in4women #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved
For all of the babies in heaven ✨ It’s rare that I can find twin and triplet art and @tuulestudio did a beautiful job on these designs. . . . #glowforge #glowforgemade #glowforgecreations #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #griefgift #babykeepsake #twinpregnancyloss #tripletpregnancyloss #angelbaby #miscarriageawareness #stillbirthawareness #1in4stillbornstilloved #etsy #etsyshop #etsybaby
Miscarriages are normal it happens it's nothing to hate or be ashamed of I'm 1 in 4 #misscarriageawareness #1in4women #1in4women #1in4stillbornstilloved
So excited about custom necklaces for this necklace specifically 👣 Look at my sweet Cooper’s tiny footprints . . #babyfootprints #footprintjewelry #customjewelry #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #1in4stillbornstilloved #stillbornstillloved #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagekeepsake #glowforge #glowforgemade #glowforgecreations
Happy due date to our beautiful boy Luca, unfortunately you aren’t here with us today as you grew your wings at 20 weeks. There isn’t a day that doesn’t go by that I don’t think about you 💔💚 #stillbirth #1in4stillbornstilloved #happyduedate
1 in 4 women trying to conceive will miscarry. The sorrow when this happens is unlike anything I have ever experienced. It’s something you always carry with you. We are donating to help moms who are going through a miscarriage with resources and an ear from someone who can relate. 1% of all sales from the month of November will be donated to the Miscarriage Association, based in the UK 🇬🇧 . ✍️ tag someone who could benefit from this great resource . . #1in4 #1in4women #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4isme #1in4stillbornstilloved #miscarraigeawareness #miscarriagequotes #miscarraigesupport
October is national pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. This hits super close to home for me. My first two pregnancies ended in loss. 1 in 4 women will lose a baby during pregnancy, delivery or infancy. I am 1 in 4. It took two losses before I got my rainbow baby (pictured in the ultrasound, she is now 1 💜) Start the conversation, make a difference, honor our babies. 💙💗💜 Talk about them, remember them and know you are not alone. A loss is never easy, you were growing a child. It doesn’t matter how “early” you lost it. Or how late you lost it. A loss of a child is a loss!!! After every storm is a rainbow 🌈 This is my “Journee” 👶🏽 We stack pink blue and purple to honor our babies. #stackpinkblueandpurple #stackchallange #bookstagram #rainbowmom #1in4women #1in4stillbornstilloved
My friends you know how this month is so important to me for pregnancy and infancy loss awareness but it’s also a way to remember we have so many Warriors that have come into our life. These beautiful pieces were released yesterday and I’m truly at awe at the beauty of each one displays. A way to show a Warrior Battling breast cancer, any illness, a Survivor or an Angel Mommy still standing, that we see them and that they are not alone. Do you know one? Unfortunately, we know one or more that have been affected in such a way. These beauties won’t be her long and are available on my site for $29. Shop on my link and create an account and you can get a 20% off coupon. 💖You can gift one to a friend, sister or mom. Or if you would like to sponsor one, they are $21 and I will donate them to Warrior mother’s who have children battling cancer(Note no profit will be made on this) As Vincent’s 7th blessing I would love to have 10 sponsored. Will you join me? Contact me if you would like to. . . . #realwomenrealstories #momstillstanding #grieftograce #realwomenrealstories #inmemoryof #warriormother #angelmommy #stilbornstillloved #cancersucks #childhoodcancerawareness #breastcancerawareness #cancersurvivor #butterflies #lamoms #strongwomen #strongmom #1in4 #1in4stillbornstilloved #mysweetvincent #chla #choc @calvinprestonfoundation
October 15, 2021 Wave of light at 7pm...we were still out celebrating our rainbow baby turning 23 months so this mama lit her candle with a heavy heart outside of PF Changs. It's very hard being a heavenly mama to Ryder & rainbow mama to Kaidyn but I try my best to be there for both of my boys. I could only have my candle lit for 15 minutes but that's ok I still lit it in memory of my little nugget. 🎄👼 On the way to mine & Kaidyn's adventure Ryder's favorite song came on & on the way home I saw a shooting star 🌠. I strongly believe these things happened thanks to Ryder. ♡ I love you soooo much Ryder Leigh & miss you EVERY day! I hope you saw your candle shining bright from heaven. #waveoflight #lossmama #heavenlymama #angelmama #bereavedmama #ilightmycandleforryder #1in4stillbornstilloved #grievingsucks #pinkandblue #babiesbornsleeping #babiesgonetoosoon #grievingmama #I'mnotok
Remembering my son, daughter, grandson and nephew #loss #bekind #candle #1in4 #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4pregnanciesendinloss
Join us in lighting a candle tonight at 7pm to remember all the babies that were taken too soon. 💝Sophie💝 #waveoflight2021 #babylossawareness #saytheirnames #1in4stillbornstilloved x
** TRIGGER WARNING ** October is also Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month. Something i wish no one would go through, but 1 in 4 Women will lose a baby during pregnancy, delivery or infancy. My Husband and I have been through 3 pregnancy losses, each one just as hard. I also personally know women who have lost their sweet baby. It’s an unbearable moment in life that doesn’t get enough recognition nor is it talked about enough. I cannot think of anyone stronger than a mother who has lost a child and still breaths. So take the time to honor them all - Let’s honor all the babies amongst the stars Honor all those who have experienced the deepest pain of womb and child loss The babies born sleeping Those we carried but never held Those we held but could not take home Those who came home but could not stay. Let’s Shatter The Silence #1in4 #1in4women #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #bornsleeping #womenarestrong #pregnancylossawarenessmonth #infantlossawarenessmonth #pregnancylosssupport #infantlosssupport
Each month Stressed Out Mamas Subscription Box will choose a charity to donate towards. October is pregnancy and infant lost awareness month so what better way then to choose @emptyarmsyxe , $2.00 from each box this month with be donated towards this charity. Empty Arms had reach out to myself a couple months back and I wanted nothing more then to support this beautiful charity. As well if you’d like to donate here is a link below https://www.emptyarmspls.com/donate #1in4women #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #nofoottosmall #nofoottosmalltoleaveanimprint #canadianmoms #canadianmomsconnect #infantlossawareness #infantloss #pregancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #pregancylossawareness #infantloss #infantlossawareness #infantlosssupport #emptyarmsyxe #emptyarms306 #emptyarmssaskatoon #emptyarms #canadianmomsupport #octoberinfantlossawarenessmonth #octoberinfantandpregnancylossmonth #octoberinfantlossawareness #octoberinfantloss #togetherwearestronger #togetherforever #neveralone #motherhood
Grief isn't something you get over, it just becomes different. #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in8couplesbattleinfertility #selfcare #MOM2MOMGLOBAL #infantloss #stillbirthawareness #ourbabieswerestillborn #itsoknottobeok💙💔 #HERNAMEISOLIVIA
Little girls can never have to many little clips. Anyone else kids obsessed with hair down days but use these to clip the fringes out of the face? . . . 🦋 Flutter Fly Fundraiser 🦋 30th September 2021 at 8pm AEST www.fmndesignz.com.au **Afterpay, Laybuy & Humm Available** . . . . . #precious #angel #angelmother #preciouswingsqld #preciouswings #memoryboxes #1in4 #1in4stillbornstilloved #miscarriageawareness #donate #fundraiser #smallbusiness #smallbusinessaustralia #smallbizbrisbane #smallbizlogan #logansmallbiz #handmadelogan #bowsofqld
Let’s start our sneak peeks with this beautiful true purple. Don’t forget that 50% of all profit will be donated to Precious Wings QLD on the 30th September. . . . 🦋 Flutter Fly Fundraiser 🦋 30th September 2021 at 8pm AEST www.fmndesignz.com.au **Afterpay, Laybuy & Humm Available** . . . . . #precious #angel #angelmother #preciouswingsqld #preciouswings #memoryboxes #1in4 #1in4stillbornstilloved #miscarriageawareness #donate #fundraiser #smallbusiness #smallbusinessaustralia #smallbizbrisbane #smallbizlogan #logansmallbiz #handmadelogan #bowsofqld
BIG SHIFTS BRING SADNESS and that’s ok Why something so positive can bring melancholy or feeling of depression? When your mind undergoes a change, it leaves everything behind, every belief it clinged itself to, every pattern of behaviour, routine, it is no longer behind the steering wheel or being in charge which can make it feel unstable or rocky. Allowing your mind to grief for “itself”, for its own flaws, inability to predict exact outcomes and accept impermanence is kindness. My mind underwent many of this shifts only by observing it, without the force or planning. Some of them were: letting go of the attachment of possessions and everything prepared for my baby son, especially accepting all the hard work was” for nothing”, acceptance for allowing people to grief in a different way to me, letting go of I, accepting death, letting go of my older son and my partner, letting go of expectations on how people should treat us and what they should say or not to say, letting go of any form of entertainment as a form of distraction from experienced pain, or any other NEW thing to make me feel better. All these shifts came with a great amount of sorrow, because I was growing, changing. Each stronger and more difficult to overcome, yet felt like a flow of movement, because it came from the trust and allowance for it to happen. I wouldn’t have it any other way…when you surrender yourself to the process and the shift is complete you are free from whatever was holding you back, joyful, incredibly strong and most importantly you never go back to the old. Your mind seen itself in the mirror and the cellular change took place. Techniques I’ve used to attain these changes will be available in my tailored coaching sessions. To the new healthy minds, habits, peace and happiness for everyone 🥂 Monty, we will always love you like crazy 🧡🦊 #coaching #healthcoaching #traumacoaching #new #newlife #newyou #betteryou #ultimatelifestyletransformation #newness #attachments #noattachments #babyloss #neonataldealth #lifeafterloss #oneinfour #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #berevement #berevementsupport #coach #notthesameanymore #newview #newlifestyle
“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray. You’ll never know, dear how much I love you...” This sweet little rainbow is not a replacement for the babe we lost before her. But, she did help bring a sense of healing to Josh and I after such a dark time. Whitney truly is our constant reminder that God is so good and faithful. If I didn’t hold her tight enough already, I may just be holding her even closer now. We lost another sweet babe of ours at the beginning of last month. I think I thought after we had Whit that it was less likely to happen again, yet here we are. This is hard. It’s hard to talk about, it’s hard to feel, it’s just plain hard. I share our family’s story because it helps me process a little better what has happened. But also, because I hope this reaches someone that needs a safe place to talk about miscarriage. It brought me so much peace after our first loss to hear from other women that their families experienced this too. Women I’d known for years yet had no idea, women I’ve looked up to, women I’d only just met, so many were brave enough to open up with me. The more conversations I had, the more I realized I wasn’t alone and this was so much more common than I ever knew. My prayer today is if you are experiencing this same hurt - for you to know you are not alone. That, and if you need someone to talk to please know I’m here🤍 . . . I also want to share a verse my dear, sweet friend sent me that is bringing comfort: “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:26 #psalm7326 #miscarriageawareness #community #pregnancyloss #postpartum #havefaith #notalone #1in4stillbornstilloved #1in4women #support
@jessica.thomas.photographer Hair by @melastyles_hair So many women have suffered the pain of a miscarriage in silence. This was a session that told her story of loss. Her story of finding healing and peace in the storm. A story that needs to be shared because too many suffer alone. 1 in 4 women have experienced pregnancy loss. Please feel free to share this. So many need to know that they are not alone <3 Here are her words: "There is shame; a silence that becomes unbearable as you see others with a future that should have been yours. The storm swirls around, unseen by anyone except you. People ask questions of when you'll have a baby. If only they knew, not every storm ends with a rainbow. The silence is stifling. When you say it out loud, people fall silent not knowing what to say, so you stop saying anything. This storm will pass, you may find yourself celebrating with a rainbow and joy beyond measure. It may pass in the night, and there no light to make a rainbow. No matter the ending, for those who are still within this storm, you are not alone. Let the shame fall away, silence filled with the voices of stories being shared freely finding peace within the storm." We have been planning this session for several months. I’m so thrilled to finally share it ❤️ Gown by @katharinahakajcouture Backdrop by @fancyfabricandprops Hair by @melastyles_hair Makeup by @shaynicole.inniss . #1in4 #1in4pregnanciesendinloss #1in4stillbornstilloved #ottawaphotographer #ottawafineartphotographer #ottawafineartphotography #nomoreshame #notalone #youarenotalone
“Hope” is the thing with feathers - That perches on the soul - And sings the tune without the words - And never stops - at all - - Emily Dickinson #littleheartsjewelry #miscarriageawareness #mothersofloss #oneinheaven #wearyourstorywithlove #fathersofloss #1in4stillbornstilloved