“A mother’s arms are more comforting than anyone else’s.” — Princess Diana #mymum #inmemoryofmymum #lostmymum #motherslove #mumscuddles #unconditionallove #lovemum #thinkingofyoumum #onlymum #mum #mummy #mumlife #mother #mothersday #mumanddaughter #mumma #fitmum #workingmum #loveyou #princess #diana #shelovesyou
6 months today you left us Mum. I have never felt so lost in my life. 🥲 ~ #grief #lostmymum #loss #mum #bereavment #justfortoday #soberjourney #cleanandserene #twelvesteprecovery
First tags on the stamping block today 🔨 . I can change "mumma" to mum, mummy, dad, daddy etc . www.poshtags.co.uk . ✨Everything fully personalised✨ . Custom request? Pop me a message 💌💬 . #poshtags #handmade #handstamped #personalised #customised #supportsmallbusiness #custommade #dog #mydog #dogtag #dogsofinstagram #IDtags #petidtags #cattag #cattags #collartag #catsofinstagram #handmadepetaccessories #lovemydog #cat #mycat #kitten #puppy #shopsmall #smallbusiness #lostmymum #losemyshit
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Heavenlybeautykayley #lostmymum #anniversary #morheranddaughterlove #lovemymum
I shared this a year ago. Grief is still an integral part of who I am now. But on those really dark days, I do find some small amount of solace in the fact that LOVE came first x and there was sooo much of it x #loss #mumofanangel #babyloss #lostmymum #grievingdaughter #petloss
Kære mor, så kom din døds attest med posten, tog virkelig pusten fra mig , stanken af sygehus, og der lå din dødsattest, en ubeskrivelig følelse som rev op i alt min allerede dybe sorg der allerede er plantet i min sjæl, jeg savner dig ! Og jeg kan slet ikke håbe nok for andre mennesker at de skal huske at værdsætte deres forældre imens de er i deres liv, sådan et liv er bare pludselig revet væk fra en 😫😭💔 #rip #missyou #lostmymum #sorrow
MEMORIAL Thanks Carlisle ICU ❤️🩹 The other night my Sister and I were invited to a special night created by Carlisle ICU nurses for families who have lost someone on their ward in the last year. What a lovely idea and special event. Yes I cried in the cathedral but it was a special feeling to be in such a glorious place with others that are going through such tough times. We glammed up, me with Mothers favourite hat and Katie with her favourite boots. She would have loved that! 💋 Thank you #cumberlandinfirmary ❤️🩹 Losing my Mum still hurts so very much and often doesn’t feel real. I miss her more than words could describe but am thankful for all the support and love around me. 💓💞 #lostmymum #grief #griefjourney
Mum ❤️ if you lost a mother.. #mumtattoo #smalltattoo #tattooinspiration #tattoowoman #tattooing #tattoogirl #femaletattoo #femaletattooartist #lostmymum
Had a lovely day having my hair done yesterday with @mollybrightoncook @thehairextensioncave. It was a sad day. 3 years since my mum left us suddenly on her birthday. Love my hair so much #hair #hairdo #hairappointment #hairwithmolly #mollythehairmagician #changemylife #frmalepatternbalding #female #sadday #lostmymum #missher #lovelytime #pamper
One month without my mum.... For whole month I have sleep issues and I afraid of nights because my brain is not resting and I am trying to recall my last conversations with my mother. I feel lonely even though I have my husband by my side who supports me and shows his love . I feel lost.... . . . . #sadness #sorrow #loss #grief #onemonthwithoutmum #lostmymum #depression #sleepless
It’s been 3 Years ago, you bid us a sudden and unexpected BYE. Life is a journey. When the plenitude of life, vitality & Joy says, “ NO” ! What can mere mortals do. Except to glorify in him. Rest In Perfect Peace MUM. Till we meet again 😭😭😭 #lostmymum #ripmother💔
Navigating grief and being self employed is a tricky job. I’m my own boss so should cut myself some slack. #lostmymum #griefjourney #selfemployedlife #celebrantlife
I’M OK 🫶🏻 Just for those who are worried. Not been very motivated to hit social media but spending lots of time with my girls and in the garden (my favourite room!). 🌿 #grief is tiring and weird. It’s a mental load. It rears its head when you don’t expect it. It makes your stomach turn at the slightest sad thought. It hides realisation around a corner. It adds you to a club that you don’t want to join. It connects you to those under their own veil of grief. ❤️🩹 But I know I will learn to live with it. I also know I can carry on growing, learning, living, enjoying all I do have! 💫 What a bunch of gloriously supportive family, friends, colleagues and clients I have!! You know who you are and I hope you know how much you’ve helped me and what that means to me. 💝 The last things my mum wished for me was to stay creative and have more adventures. What a glorious couple of things to do! Well picked Mother! Yes, I shall! Thanks to you all again, your patience and understanding means this rough time is slightly easier 💖 A x #daughter #lostmymum #griefjourney #griefsucks #selfemployed #selfemployedproblems #motivation #lifewithoutmymomsucks
On Monday our hearts were shattered ❤️🩹we lost my mum Nita , I can’t believe I’m not going to see you again . You have been the best mum, Nannan ❤️❤️❤️ #mum #lostmymum #lost #cancersucks
023/101 - “Long run” compared to my 5ks a day it’s along run okay… Only because my harming said I was in “maintaining” not “productive” so that had to change no one likes to coast right? - Bitterly cold this morning but a what a beautiful sunrise. - 10k ✔️ 5:11 pace 144 HR - #cruising #morningrun #easyrun #zone2run #runnacoach #puresport #garminfeatures #runnerlife #rungoals #101dayrunchallenge #mentalhealth #awareness #greiving #lostmymum
Mooi invul boekje van @koesteringen_nl als hulp bij verwerking na het verliezen van een dierbare #ikbennietoke #rouwverwerking #geboortevreugde #tomanymixedemotions #upsanddowns #lostmymum #gainedagranddaughter #sadness #joy #sadnesandjoy
My best creations to date ♥️ #mothersday #mother #motherhood #mybabies #blackandwhitephoto #blackandwhitephotography #happymothersday #motheringsunday #mothersday #mother #mumlife #mum #mumvibes #foundersraisingthefuture #lostmymum
023/101 - “Long run” compared to my 5ks a day it’s along run okay… Only because my harming said I was in “maintaining” not “productive” so that had to change no one likes to coast right? - Bitterly cold this morning but a what a beautiful sunrise. - 10k ✔️ 5:11 pace 144 HR - #cruising #morningrun #easyrun #zone2run #runnacoach #puresport #garminfeatures #runnerlife #rungoals #101dayrunchallenge #mentalhealth #awareness #greiving #lostmymum
When we are deep in our grief, it’s hard to find things to laugh about, it’s hard to feel ok about laughing after loosing someone we love, but it’s important to remember research shows, laughter triggers physical and emotional changes in our body. It strengthens our immune system, boosts our mood, diminishes pain, and protects us from the damaging effects of grief and stress. Nothing works faster or more reliably to bring our minds and bodies back into balance than a good laugh. Whilst it can’t take our pain away, it’s so important to have some relief from it temporarily, Humour lightens our burdens, inspires hope, connects us to others, and keeps us grounded, focused, and alert. It also helps us release anger and forgive sooner. With so much power to heal and renew, the ability to laugh easily and frequently is a tremendous resource for surmounting problems, enhancing our relationships, and supporting both physical and emotional health. Whatever kind of day your having today, I hope you can find something to laugh about and feel that benefits ..even if it’s just for a moment xx #loveandlaughter #laughteristhebestmedicine #grief #heal #griefjourney #grievingprocess #griefawareness #griefshare #griefawareness #griefisreal #griefislovewithnoplacetogo #griefislove griefrecovery #griefandlosssupport #bereavement #berevementsupport #lossandlove #loveandloss #lostmymum #anger #talkingaboutgrief #bereavementtherapy #mentalhealthmattersforall #griefsupports #griefjourneys #griefjourney #motherlessdaughter #motherlessdaughters
Goodbye Greenways 👋 Today marks new people moving into my mum's place. Will it ever feel right? #lost #sellingahome #lostmymum #new #newmemories #3andahalfyearsold
2 years without you mum! I miss you so much... Rest in peace! 🙏😇🖤 . . . #myangel #mymum #lostmymum #love #neverforgetyou #sadness #family #iloveyoumum #storyofmylife #elisavetayagodina
Happy 80th birthday dearest mum. I know you won’t know it’s your birthday and you won’t know know who I am but I just want you to know I love you and miss you 😞😓🥺 this is not the journey you wanted or deserved vascular dementia is a cruel horrible unfair disease you deserve to live your life with us not locked away in a home. I just get so frustrated we should have been planning a big party of fancy dinner celebrating 80 years of your wonderful life instead we are mourning the women you were. They say it’s a privilege to grow old in your case it’s hard because your here in body but not mind. All I can say is Happy birthday mum I love you always and forever Xx love Heidi your daughter 🥺❤️ • • • #ilovemymum #80yearsold #vasculardementia #crueldisease #fitat49 #lostmymum #lifeiscruel #happybirthday #80yearsyoung #personaltrainer #mymum #hrandma #gg #fabulouswomen #likemotherlikedaughter #daughterlove❤️ #fitnanofsiennaandcooperandhuntertwins
My mum passed away suddenly Wednesday 10th. Completely unexpected, no warning signs whatsoever. We are all so deeply in shock, feels like we are watching a painfully sad movie. I’m lost of words … lost in general #loss #mymum #lovemymum #missmymum #lostmymum #heartbroken #breavement #whatdoidonow
Stranded seal pup safely picked up by the #sspca from Earlsferry beach. Fantastic village effort #community #sspca #sealpup #stranded #elie #lovefife #villagelife #nodogsallowed #happyending #lostmymum #help #communityeffort #windbreak
2 Years ago, you bid us a sudden and unexpected BYE. Life is a journey. In all PAIN is an unspeakable comfort that oozes from God’s presence. When the plenitude of life, vitality & Joy says, “ NO” ! We still glorify in tribulation. Rest In Perfect Peace MUM. Till we meet again 😭😭😭 #lostmymum #ripmother💔
New plaque finished for a customer ❤️ #plaque #memoryplaque #missmum #mourning #lostmymum #memorialart #nurserydecor #glitter #lilac #nefoeddsent #welshgifts #wales
I’ve really struggled emotionally and mentally to feel free to do art since so unexpectedly and traumatically losing my artistic Mum (@annaelly_artist) in late 2020. I had only just started discovering art, vs my usual design work, a couple years before and she was excited. We had big plans brewing, things we wanted to do together. SOOO much of her art (from pastel, printmaking to oils and acrylics+), photography, dressmaking and more extensive skills were never seen. Looking back, I know we did sooooo much together, but I greedily wish we had done so much more. There is nothing worse than looking back on time, and finally seeing things that you wish or might have done differently. It’s a painful lesson … but one I evidently haven’t learnt well enough, as I still am holding myself back even now … instead of grabbing time and flying. Guilt, fear, overwhelm and shock combine still … and I know I should be allowing it out and even down on canvas. So, I came up with the idea to bring Mum into my art studio, to be by my side, so that it might feel more joyful instead … and we can still art together in an odd way. (Even writing this the raw tears still flow.) There’s nothing easy about losing a loved one and especially not when they’re your best friend. It’s not a fancy wall creation but it’s unique, and every pic is a special thing that we always did; from art and gallery adventures, coffee, puzzles and games, travel, hugs, laughter and cheeky grins. Due to lockdown, there was no real funeral, no way to truly celebrate Mum publicly and only grieving in private … so it feels important to share the amazing gift and memories that was this very, very special person 🧡 My Mutti, AnnaElly Sipthorp. 🔸Have you lost an artistic loved one? Did you find a way to keep them with you and keep creating? I would love and appreciate to hear your special methods… Hugs, K.
4 years ago, the light in our lives went out. My mum was my biggest supporter for my dance career. So today, I dusted of the pointe shoes and had a moment just for my mum. We miss you so much 🧡 . . . #lostmymum #mymum #bestmum #bestmumintheworld #mysupport #numberonefan #ballet #ballerina #balletdancer #retireddancer #retiredballerina #prodancer #professionaldancer
🤍🤍🤍 My goals for 2022 🤍🤍🤍 Few days ago I did a poll on what are your goals for 2022…. Most of you answer “ be happier” While we grieve we tend to hide any feelings of happiness because we feel guilty or feel like we don’t deserve to be happy perhaps, like we shouldn’t. What I learned so far is that grief and happiness can co exist! The important question here is what makes you happy today ? do you know that ? After our loss we lose the person we were and become this different person as we will never be the same as our loss changes us forever. The work in here is learn about your new you, who are you now ? What are the things that make you alive? What would you like to archive in life ? Who would you like to become ? A lot of people I talked to suddenly realised after their loss things are different and they want different things in life, change carriers or do things they would never imagine doing.. Once you taken the time to acknowledge that your grief will always be with you and to get to know the new you then perhaps you will reach that “happiness” a bit more.. In 2022 I want to carry on working on myself and discover me more and more. I would like to carry on learning on letting go of my fears, worries and surrender more. Focusing on my nutrition and fitness as these two things do wonders to me, like magic honestly! Practicing to live in the moment every day a bit more ( no as easy as its sound ) Learning new things and keep traveling as it feeds my souls. And last not the least, create more memories with my family 🤍 2022 I see it as the year of blossom for me, I been planting the seeds since my mum passed in 2019, 2020 woke up spiritually, 2021 start seeing the results but needs more watering and 2022 i hope to see a flower blossom, with just one ill be happy 🌺🙏 All these thongs take time, processing grief takes time, healing takes time, discovering your new you takes time. Wish to all my beautiful followers a year where they will find themselves more and To reach that hapiness you are after 🤍
Sorry I haven’t posted for a while. I lost my beautiful mummy Rosie and it’s been very sad in this house but wanted to wish you all a very merry Christmas #frenchiesofinstagram #jackrussellterrier #frenchbulljackofinstagram #dogsofinstagram #christmas #lostmymum
I can’t believe I am writing this, it still doesn’t seem real. But my beautiful mum, the kids Grandma, passed away in hospital, although she had been in for 10 days it was completely out of the blue, we are heartbroken 💔 I have no words, she was 59 and should not of gone this soon, I can’t imagine a future without her, she was the heart and sole of the family, she was one of a kind and the most amazing person that will forever stay in anyone’s heart that she met. We have so many beautiful memories but we should of had plenty more, life is cruel 💔 No word will ever be enough to explain what an amazing and special person she was ❤️ I was with her until the very end, I held her tight and told her how much she was loved by her family and friends ❤️ ❤️❤️❤️ 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 I love you so much Mum, you will forever be in my heart and the kids hearts, I am thankful we have so many special memories as a family and will continue to live with those memories in our ❤️ forever. . . . #mum #lostmymum #lostmybestfriend #amazingperson #angel #grewangelwings #amazingmum #grandma #angelinyhesky #lostwithoutyou #loveyou #family #memories #bestmum #bestgrandma #lostwithoutyou
Before my whole world broke #mumimissyou #motorneuronedisease #brokeme #lostmymum #iloveyousomuch #brotherandsister
I play this video over and over watching our memories together. My mum was such a special woman. I can’t express enough the pain is unbearable at times I just wish sometimes to not feel it just for one day. On the outside I can seem like I’m okay but inside I’m breaking! I know that will never change just learning to live my life this way. Be the best mum and wife I can be #griefsupoort #grief #mum #lostmymum #braintumor #braintumorawareness #cancerawareness
Only a few days after Dad, you didn’t want to be without him any longer - two years ago now. Go well, Mum … you are never far away from me. #thinkingofmum #mymum #lostmymum #mum
After the loss of my mum two years ago, I found my purpose which is to help you with your loss of your own mother. You are not alone 🤍 Feel free to book a complimentary 1h session via my link in bio in Instagram to see if we can start this journey together and to get more information on my coaching. You can also DM directly. 🤍
HELP! I lost my mum, where did she go #bigboi #puppiesofinstagram #wss #whiteswisssheperd #lostmymum #ifitsisits
Like it genuinely put a smile on my face when I saw her post and how she will never forget her. I want to hear about the memories other people have of her. I want people to say her name more often. I want people not to be afraid that they will just bring more pain and sadness by talking about her. The thing is at this point even if we end up crying after hearing a story it will still help us releasing these emotions. Would you like to hear more your mum’s name or memories other people have of her ? Comment below 🤍
One of the things that grief has taught me is that the inner work and self development work is so important no only to help me throughout my healing journey but for other aspects of my life. Specially learning more about my emotions 🤍 I know it hard as at first we feel totally lost but slowly you will find clarity I promise you🌈 Comment below all the different feelings you experiencing right now.
Schätze dein Leben und mache das Beste daraus, denn es kann schneller vorbei sein als du schauen kannst. #mumlife #sunshine #lostmymum #nachvorneschauen #lebengehtweiter #mamaliebe #tochterliebe #chain #heartchain #piercings #piercedgirl #brownhair #browneyes #redlips #spring #frühling
Myths and Facts about grief I know some people that feel guilty because their suffering is not “as bad “ as society want it to be. So this makes them feel that they are not grieving as they should. But some people cry in the inside let’s not forget about that. We all grief differently 🤍
5 Types of grief There are actually more so I might do another post of the other ones soon. Again it’s not one fit all! For me I would say I had anticipated grief and that tends to happen when you know your love one is terminal. In one way it helps you to prepare for it mentally even though we are never prepare to lose a love one specially our own mother! But it is so different when it’s a sudden loss due to an accident for example! The shock and trauma of that experience is incomparable.
Myths and fact about grief. For me crying is helping me a lot! Afterwards I feel instantly better. Specially the first year, I felt like almost my glass was building up and I would go to the point I knew I needed to let it all out to be able to carry on. I would have a good cry one of those that I can’t describe, almost as if i would allow myself to dive into this abyss for few minutes. However I knew I could bring myself back to the surface feeling much better, and it always worked for me. Felt recharged and ready to carry on with life. I have cried with family and friends sometimes but I find it easier to really let myself go when I am within my safe private space. Do you feel better after a good cry?
There's no right or wrong way to grieve, so don't let anyone tell you have you 'should' feel. Whether you're angry, sad, confused or able to find moments of joy, it's ok. And if you feel all of those things at the same time, that's ok too. This is YOUR journey, and no one else gets to have an opinion on how you 'should' be handling it. . . . . . . . . . . #griefcommunity #dontletanyonetellyouhowtofeel #hospiscare #becauseeverydaymatters #grief #loss #griefandloss #griefcommunitydevon #devongrievers #youdoyou #mygriefjourney #everyonegrievesdifferently #stagesofgrief #griefjourney #griefgang #worstgirlgangever #griefclub #welcometothegriefclub #griefsucks #grieftalk #letstalkaboutgrief #letstalkaboutloss #hospice #devon #igersdevon #instagriefcommunity #lostmymum #lostmydad #mothersdayishard #exeter
Even though we are in 2021 Our society still find it uncomfortable to talk about grief. This doesn’t help the people that are grieving, it makes them feel not understood, alone, that they live with a malady. We need to talk more about it ! We shouldn’t try to avoid it and forget it as soon as possible. Grief is the extension of Love. Comment below with an emoji if you are agree
I finished the first draft of my Yoga and Grief memoir 'You Can't Hug a Butterfly: Love, Loss, Grief and Yoga' this week. Grief is a painful and lonely business but Yoga helps and continues to be my anchor for my grieving process. This simple class is suitable for everyone, no Yoga experience necessary. It comprises of gentle mobilisation to bring ease and relief to the body and mind as well as two pranayama or breathing exercises which I found really helped me. It is important that we talk about grief and normalise this process which affects us all. #griefandyoga #yogaheals #normalizegrief #girlswhogrieve #drmekel #writinggrief #goodgriefuk #thegriefgang #thegriefguide #thegriefgirl #liforme #diannebondyyogaofficial #yogaforgriefandloss #hayhouseuk #georginalawton #yogaforgriefsupport #girlswhogrieve #whathegrief #griefyoga #lockdowngrief #griefyogateacher #thebiggrief #motherlessdaughters #bereavementyoga #mixedmessages #cruse #thegriefkitchen #healthygrieving #lostmymum
Grief is exhausting! Sometimes we need to give ourselves a little reminder that we are doing the best we can with what we are going through ❤️ Here is to today’s little pep talk!! • • • • #motherlessdaughters #motherlessdaughter #adultorphan #lossofalovedone #lossofamother #lostmymum #grief #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefsupport #griefsupportglasgow #glasgowblogger #imissyou #imissyoumum #lifeafterloss #lifeafteryou #motherlesstribe #crusescotland #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #lifeafterloss #lifeafteryou #griefcommunity
Even after 21 months, I can’t get my head around the fact you won’t be coming home. When I sorted through your stuff 6 months after you died I couldn’t bare to get rid of anything..... so I didn’t. I kept everything! It’s like I’m waiting for you to come home 💔. • • • • #motherlessdaughters #motherlessdaughter #adultorphan #lossofalovedone #lossofamother #lostmymum #grief #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefsupport #griefsupportglasgow #glasgowblogger #imissyou #imissyoumum #lifeafterloss #lifeafteryou #motherlesstribe #crusescotland #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #lifeafterloss #lifeafteryou #griefcommunity
Nobody else asks how my day went, what I was having for lunch. Nobody remembers the little things or the dates we celebrate or the ones that hurt. The type of cake we get at Costa, the perfume we get for Christmas or what type of birthday card we like. Nobody cares quite like this! We are all selfish beings to an extent, some more than others but it’s often not intentional when it comes to things like this by those who love and care for us. Doesn’t make it hurt any less now you’re not here to do it 💔 • • • • #motherlessdaughters #motherlessdaughter #adultorphan #lossofalovedone #lossofamother #lostmymum #grief #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefsupport #griefsupportglasgow #glasgowblogger #imissyou #imissyoumum #lifeafterloss #lifeafteryou #motherlesstribe #crusescotland #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #lifeafterloss #lifeafteryou #griefcommunity
A few nights ago I picked up my phone to call a takeaway for me and my husband, as we were chatting and the line rang the person answered. It wasn’t the takeaway though, I had accidentally rang the wrong number ..... when I looked to to see what number I called, I seen it was yours. Your phone number Mum, the one you had during my childhood and one you haven’t had for years. There’s few things that shock me about grief these days but this was one of them. My subconscious clearly knew I needed you and tried to get to you. If only it was that easy 💔 it’s been a tough few weeks with Christmas and getting married, days where the want for you is higher than ever. I miss you, Mum. What I would give to have you on the other end of the phone 🤍 • • • • #motherlessdaughters #motherlessdaughter #adultorphan #lossofalovedone #lossofamother #lostmymum #grief #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefsupport #griefsupportglasgow #glasgowblogger #imissyou #imissyoumum #lifeafterloss #lifeafteryou #motherlesstribe #crusescotland #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #lifeafterloss #lifeafteryou #griefcommunity #amistilladaughter
To all of you, Happy Holidays🎄 and Best Wishes! Love from Lygia🌸 #merrychristmas #happyholidays #angels #lostmymum #christmaswithoutmum #inmemoryofmymum #christmasgifts #loveyourparents #2020 #beautysanctuarybylygia #sanctuarycove #goldcoastbeauty
Gone but never ever forgotten 🤍 Love you Mamma Bear, in my heart at Christmas and forever my Angel xx
“Hidden Huntley!” Hand-stitched and designed by me based on the gardens of a beautiful old house close to where I live, which has connections to the old Irish Linen Mills. Blackbirds feed beneath the old apple tree and roses bloom profusely in summer around the house and walled garden. (Unfortunately the subtle paint effect of the tall trees behind the gates does not show up very well at all in this photo). www.hiddenhuntley.com @hiddenhuntleybelfast Stitching this little bird late last Saturday evening is particularly poignant as early the next morning I was awoken by the sad news that my mum had breathed her last breath and slipped peacefully away in her sleep. As I arrived at my parents home a short while later in the dawn light, a lone blackbird perched in the tree outside mum’s bedroom window, singing a low sweet melodious song..... #hiddenhuntley #handembroidery #stitchersofinstagram #embroideredillustration #blackbird #oldgates #lostmymum #irishlinen
I had a conversation with a friend a few days ago about this. I have felt like this for 18 months and my friend 2 years. It’s exhausting to constantly be feeling like I have this double life. Life will never be the same ever again, that’s very clear but why do we have to feel that we can’t be honest about how HARD life after loss really is!! As if it’s not hard enough eh 🙄 • • • • #motherlessdaughters #motherlessdaughter #adultorphan #lossofalovedone #lossofamother #lostmymum #grief #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefsupport #griefsupportglasgow #glasgowblogger #imissyou #imissyoumum #lifeafterloss #lifeafteryou #motherlesstribe #crusescotland #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #lifeafterloss #lifeafteryou #christmasgrief #griefcommunity
12th Month of the Year🖤 #december2020 #christmas #black #blackchristmas #lostmymum #grieving #covidchristmas
After only seven precious days, you left us to be with Dad. Your deep love for him was clear; your courage was astounding. A year ago today. Rest now, Mum - go well. #ripmum #grief #strongwoman #lostmymother #lostmymum #bothparentsgone
In the words of Amber Jeffrey (@thegriefgang) it’s a griefy day today. The griefiest. Some days my grief feels physically heavy on my body - I feel achey, tired, nervous, scared, jumpy always just on edge. And today is one of them days. I feel the absence of my Mum heavily today and the day just feels heavy. I don’t know how else to describe it! But then other days the weight lifts and I can just be really happy that I ever knew her. Each day is different and I’m just taking teeny tiny little steps every day. - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #imissyoumum #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #imissmymum
Every time I talk about my Mum it’s still in the present tense - ‘Mum likes them’ ‘Mum loves this film’ etc. I can’t give it up yet. Can’t imagine saying ‘Mum liked them’ in the past tense because that would be like admitting that she’ll always be in the past tense now which is so wrong. I will still keep saying I’m going to see ‘my parents’ instead of just my Dad for the foreseeable. She just still feels so alive to me. - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #imissyoumum #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #imissmymum
Really been feeling this recently. Like people think when your Mum dies you just don’t have a Mum anymore. But I personally feel like I do have a Mum still. The relationship doesn’t die just because the person does. Mum is still very much in my life and will be forever even though she’s dead. She’ll still be there even if I can’t see her. I’ve still got a Mum I’ve still had a Mum I’ve still been mothered she just isn’t here anymore. - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #imissmymum
It’s been just under 15 weeks. Cannot believe that. Seems like an absolutely age ago and yesterday all at once. Nothing is the same now. Nothing. My life has never changed so quickly as it did the second that you had to go. Nothing has stayed still. Everything has moved and nothing is where it should be. It should never have happened Mum and now it has and it feels like so long since I’ve seen you and yet it feels like you’re still here. - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #imissyoumum #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #imissmymum #grievingprocess
Something I’ve been thinking about a lot today. I have so many lovely little notes letters texts cards from my Mum telling her how much she loved me. And I felt so very loved by her always. And I still very much feel that love. But now she’s gone I would give anything for a note that says ‘Bubs I know how much I mean to you’ or ‘I know how much you love me’ I worry now that she didn’t feel loved and that I didn’t say it enough. Didn’t show it enough. How much I liked and loved her. If I could speak to her now I think I really would ask her but Mum do you know how much I love you? Did you feel loved? Did it keep you feeling safe and warm? I’ve decided now that for every card I write to someone I love I’ll sign it off ‘I really love you and I feel loved by you’ just so they know. - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #imissyoumum #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #deadmumsclub #imissmymum
It just got me today that I’ve never been alive without my Mum and now I’ll be alive without her for the rest of my time here. I haven’t had a life without her. And now everything I do is without her. - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #imissyoumum #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #deadmumsclub #imissmymum
This is a bit out there not sure if it will resonate with anyone else but I saw a quote that someone posted recently saying people don’t realise the permanence of death until they are bereaved. You can’t understand just how final death is until you’ve experienced the death of someone close to you. And that’s something that I’ve really really been feeling recently. I understand that because she’s dead I won’t ever be able to see her again but I can’t BELIEVE that I’ll never be able to see my Mum again. I can’t believe that that’s it forever. I never thought it would be forever. She will be dead for all the rest of time. Dead forever. And now it’s here it is so difficult to grasp. And such a simple concept for those that haven’t experienced it yet but so hard for me to envisage. - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #imissyoumum #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #deadmumsclub #imissmymum
I think right now it’s upsetting that so much makes me think of my Mum but in the future I think that will be comforting like she’s all around me. But now it’s hard because I just miss her so much and I really get lots that I like about myself from her so I’m reminded of her all the time. It’ll be three months on Thursday. How is that possible. - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #imissyoumum #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #deadmumsclub #imissmymum
This time three months ago my Dad was buying her her favourite food in case she came out of the hospital this weekend. Every day is significant. Even if that significance is that it was before she was poorly and before I had anything to worry about. Previous normality is now incredibly significant because it feels so alien. This weekend three months ago she didn’t come out and my Dad ate a meal for two still so hopeful he would see her again. Every day reminds me of her in someway. I miss you so much Mummy. I miss being hopeful for your return. - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #imissyoumum #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #deadmumsclub #imissmymum #deathanniversary
But I still feel very much left. And that’s not her fault. She really truly wasn’t ready to go yet I think if I could speak to her now she would be shocked that she’d died and so disappointed because she had so much more that she wanted to do. She didn’t want to leave me. She really didn’t. But I still feel left. And Mum I’m sorry that I feel like you’ve abandoned me because I know you didn’t want to go. I just really really didn’t want you to go either. I wasn’t ready to not have a mother anymore. I don’t want to be here without you. I don’t want to do any of it without you. I know you didn’t want to go but I just really wish you hadn’t 😭 - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #imissyoumum #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #deadmumsclub #imissmymum
I just really really miss my Mum today. I love this picture of us because I’m just being cuddled and I can imagine what the warmth of her would have felt like. I know what she would have been saying and I can hear her saying it. She had such a lovely voice. I’ll miss her lovely voice. And I’ll miss all the lovely things she said to me that no one else will ever say. It feels to me now that no one ever loves you like your Mum does. I miss her even more than I thought I would. - #grief #covidgrief #lockdowngrief #motherlessdaughters #letterstomymother #letterstopolly #imissyoumum #grieving #griefpoetry #covid19grief #missingmum #griefprocess #griefjourney #griefsupport #griefandloss #losingmum #grievingdaughter #griefawareness #losingmymum #lostmymum #grievingmum #griefwork #griefworks #griefpoem #griefshare #parentallossawareness #parentalloss #deadmumsclub #imissmymum